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“This Too Shall Pass”

"This Too Shall Pass"

 

 

 

 

یہ مضمون اردو میں پڑھیں

I brought the question to him on a day when things felt particularly heavy. Not because anything catastrophic had happened, but because life had become difficult enough that I could not see beyond it, the way a single loud sound can drown out everything else in a room.

He listened quietly, as he always did, letting me finish before he spoke. Then he smiled. “Have you heard the story about Alexander the Great?”

I shook my head.

“According to a famous story, Alexander once asked one of his advisors for a piece of wisdom that would help him in both times of happiness and times of sorrow.”

“What kind of wisdom?”

“Something that would comfort him during hardship and keep him grounded in success.”

“And what did the advisor tell him?”

He paused, the way he did when he wanted a line to land with full weight. Then he replied, “This too shall pass.”

For a moment, I was disappointed. It sounded too simple. Surely the great conqueror of the world deserved something more profound than that, some elaborate secret rather than a phrase you might find stitched on a cushion.

He must have sensed my reaction, because he laughed. “You don’t seem impressed.”

“Honestly,” I admitted, “it sounds obvious.”

“It is obvious,” he replied. “The problem is that we rarely live as though it is true.”

I thought about that for a moment. “What do you mean?”

“When we are suffering, we unconsciously act as if the suffering is permanent.”

That resonated with me immediately because whenever I am anxious, disappointed, embarrassed, or hurt, the feeling never announces itself as temporary. It feels endless, as though the walls of the moment extend infinitely in every direction.

He continued. “Think about the last major difficulty you faced.” I immediately thought of several: a professional setback that had felt like the end of something, a misunderstanding in a relationship that had cost me sleep, and a long period of uncertainty when nothing seemed to move forward. At the time, each had felt overwhelming, the kind of thing that reorganizes your whole sense of what the future holds.

“Do those things affect you today in the same way?” he asked.

“No.”

“Why not?”

“Because time passed.”

He smiled. “Exactly.” Then he leaned back and said something I found genuinely interesting. “The strange thing is that people usually understand this lesson intellectually, but they struggle to remember it emotionally.”

I asked him to explain. “When you’re anxious, your mind acts as if this moment will last forever,” he said. “When you’re sad, it feels permanent. When you’re worried, it feels permanent. When you’re embarrassed, it feels permanent. But none of those things are permanent.”

I remembered something from years ago. I had once been deeply upset over a professional issue, the kind that occupies every idle minute. For weeks, it dominated my thoughts. I replayed conversations I had already gone over a dozen times. I imagined consequences that never arrived. I lost sleep over decisions that, in hindsight, mattered far less than they seemed to at three in the morning. And yet years later, I could barely remember the details, only the vague shape of having once been very upset about something at that job.

When I told him this, he laughed. “Exactly. Most of the things that dominate our minds today will barely occupy them a few years from now.”

Then he surprised me. “You know, the phrase is just as important in success.”

I had never thought about that. “I understand why it helps in hardship,” I said. “But why in success?”

“Because success creates a different illusion.”

“What illusion?”

“The illusion that good things will stay forever.”

I sat quietly because that was true too. When life is going well, we quietly begin to assume it will continue indefinitely: the job, the health, the relationships, the recognition, the comfort, the stability. Without ever deciding to, we begin treating temporary gifts as permanent possessions, as if a person might forget that a rented house is not actually theirs to keep.

He nodded as if he knew exactly what I was thinking. “That is why the phrase is so powerful. It comforts you in difficulty and humbles you in success.”

I remembered an elderly man I once knew who had suffered enormous financial losses. At the time, he believed his life had been ruined and that everything he had built was gone for good. Years later, when speaking about that same period, he described it very differently. “Looking back,” he told me, “that was one of the best things that ever happened to me.” When I asked why, he smiled and said simply, “It forced me to become a different person.”

I shared the story with him. He nodded. “You see? At the time, he could only see the pain. Later, he could see the growth.” Then he said something I found myself returning to long after the conversation ended. “The present moment is a terrible place to judge the entire story.”

I laughed. “That sounds true.”

“When you’re standing inside a chapter, you can’t see the whole book.”

We sat in silence for a moment. Then I asked, “If everything goes as planned, doesn’t that make life less meaningful?”

He shook his head immediately. “No. It makes life more meaningful.”

“How?”

He pointed toward the window. “Imagine a sunset.”

“Okay.”

“Would it be as beautiful if it lasted forever?”

I thought about it. Probably not. A sky that stayed gold and pink all day, every day, would eventually become wallpaper, something the eye no longer registered.

“The fact that it ends is part of what makes it precious,” he continued. “A child is small for only a few years. A conversation happens only once, exactly this way, with exactly these people, never to be repeated in quite the same form. A season comes and goes. The very fact that these things pass is what gives them much of their value.”

I had never considered impermanence from that angle before. We usually treat permanence as the thing worth wanting, the goal underlying most of our other goals. Yet so much of what we cherish draws its beauty from being temporary in the first place.

“Then maybe,” I said, “the problem is not that things pass.”

“The problem is that we keep expecting them not to.” He smiled. “I think that’s a big part of it.”

As the conversation drew to a close, I asked him one final question. “What should I do when I’m overwhelmed?”

He paused for a moment. “Ask yourself a simple question.”

“What question?”

“Will this feel as important a year from now?”

I laughed. “That would ease many of my worries.”

“Probably.”

“And if it still matters a year from now?”

“Then deal with it, but remember that even this chapter is not the whole story.”

As I left that day, I kept hearing those words in my mind. “This too shall pass.” Not as an invitation to indifference. Not as an excuse to avoid responsibility. Not as a reason to care less. But as a reminder to keep perspective.

The difficult moments will pass. The joyful moments will pass. The praise will pass. The criticism will pass. The success will pass. The failure will pass. Perhaps wisdom lies in learning to walk through both triumph and trial with the same quiet awareness: “This too shall pass.”

Points for Reflection

  • Name the last thing that felt permanent. Recall a difficulty from a few years ago that once felt unbearable. Notice how much of its weight remains today, and what that tells you about the one you’re carrying now.
  • Ask the one-year question. For whatever is overwhelming you right now, ask honestly: will this feel exactly this important a year from now? Let the answer change how much of today you give to it.
  • Check what you’re treating as permanent. Where in your life, right now, during a season that is going well, are you quietly assuming the good will simply continue? What would it mean to hold it a little more loosely?
  • Remember the chapter is not the book. The next time a single moment feels like it defines everything, ask what you might be unable to see simply because you are standing inside it rather than looking back at it.
  • Let impermanence add rather than subtract. Choose one thing you love precisely because it does not last, a season, a stage of a child’s life, an ordinary evening, and let that temporariness deepen your attention to it rather than your anxiety about losing it.

 

 

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Why Comfort Is Not Enough

Why Comfort Is Not Enough

 

 

 

یہ مضمون اردو میں پڑھیں

I once asked him a question that had quietly bothered me for years: “Why do people who seem to have everything still feel empty?”

He looked at me for a moment and said, “What do you mean by everything?”

“Comfort, I suppose. Money. Status. Security. Entertainment. The freedom to do almost whatever they want.”

“And none of those seem sufficient?”

“Not always.”

I thought of several people I had known over the years. Some had achieved much of what others spend their lives pursuing. Their careers were successful. Their finances were stable. Their lives appeared comfortable from the outside. Yet whenever I spent enough time with them, I sensed a restlessness that those achievements hadn’t resolved. At the same time, I had known people whose circumstances were objectively more difficult. They carried burdens others did not. Yet they often had an aliveness that seemed strangely absent in people with easier lives.

He nodded and said, “So perhaps comfort and meaning are not the same thing.”

I expected a more satisfying answer. I asked, “Isn’t comfort part of a good life?”

“Of course it is. Rest matters. Pleasure matters. Security matters. There is nothing admirable about making life unnecessarily difficult.”

He paused for some time, and then added, “But suppose every discomfort disappeared. Would that automatically answer the question, What is my life for?”

I thought about it. “No,” I finally said.

He smiled faintly and said, “Then perhaps comfort solves one kind of human problem without solving another.”

That distinction stayed with me.

For much of my life, I assumed dissatisfaction meant something was missing from a person’s circumstances. More success. More recognition. More freedom. More enjoyable experiences. If enough problems could be removed and enough pleasures added, fulfillment would surely follow. Yet experience kept complicating that theory. A person could possess comfort and still wonder why any of it mattered.

After a few moments, he asked, “Have you ever been busy and yet strangely empty?”

I laughed and said, “More than once.”

“What was missing?”

The question immediately brought a particular period of my life to mind. My days were full. Meetings, responsibilities, deadlines, projects. From the outside, it looked productive. In fact, if someone had asked me whether I was accomplishing things, I would have said yes. Yet there was a question quietly following me through all of it. Why does any of this matter? I wasn’t asking it consciously every day. But I could feel its presence. Eventually I said, “I think I lost sight of why I was doing any of it.”

He nodded. “That is different from being tired.”

I thought about it for a moment and then said, “I was tired too. But this felt deeper.”

“Perhaps you were not only short of energy,” he said. “Perhaps you were short of meaning.”

That was the first time the word came up in our conversation.

After a pause, he asked, “Have you read Viktor Frankl?”

“Only a little.”

He nodded. “Frankl developed what became known as logotherapy around a deceptively simple idea: human beings do not merely seek pleasure, power, or the reduction of discomfort. We also need to experience life as meaningful.”

I had heard that idea before. Yet hearing it beside the discussion of comfort made it feel more concrete.

“So meaning was the main thing he thought people were looking for?” I asked.

“He described the search for meaning as a central human motivation.”

Then he added a qualification I appreciated. “That doesn’t mean meaning explains everything. Human beings are more complicated than that.”

I nodded.

He continued: “Depression, anxiety, trauma, grief, and many other forms of suffering can arise from numerous causes. Meaning is not a replacement for treatment. It is not a cure-all.”

“Then why is it so important?”

“Because even when you understand symptoms, habits, and emotions, something important may remain unexplored if you never ask what a person’s life is oriented toward.”

He paused. “What are they living for?”

That question felt larger than I expected. We often ask people what they want. What career do you want? What kind of house? What income? What lifestyle? What experiences? But what are you living for? belonged to an entirely different category.

It forced me to think not merely about what I hoped to obtain, but about what made obtaining anything worthwhile in the first place.

Seeing my expression, he offered an example: “Imagine two people doing equally demanding work.”

I nodded.

“Same hours. Same effort. Same salary.” He said. “One experiences the work as something to endure until payday. The other believes the work contributes to something deeply important. Wouldn’t both still become tired?”

“Of course.”

“So what changes?”

He smiled. “Not necessarily the exhaustion. The meaning of the exhaustion.”

I understood immediately. Meaning did not remove the cost. It changed the relationship to the cost. I thought about parents caring for a sick child. The sleepless nights are real. The exhaustion is real. Love doesn’t magically eliminate any of that. Yet most parents wouldn’t experience those sacrifices the same way they would meaningless deprivation.

“They know what the tiredness is for,” I said.

“Exactly,” he said. “A burden can remain heavy and still become worth carrying.”

He later spoke about Frankl’s experiences during the Holocaust and the ideas that eventually emerged in Man’s Search for Meaning. But he was careful. “People sometimes turn Frankl into a slogan.”

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“They hear his story and conclude that meaning allows people to overcome anything.”

I nodded.

“But that isn’t a careful conclusion. Extreme suffering can overwhelm people. Trauma is real. Human resilience varies.”

“So what’s the more accurate lesson?”

He thought for a moment and then said, “Meaning can give a person something to orient toward even when suffering cannot immediately be removed.” Something to live for. I found that formulation both humbler and more profound. It didn’t romanticize suffering. It simply refused to assume suffering had the final word.

I asked another question, “Did Frankl think meaning had to come from some grand achievement?”

“No,” He said, smiling. “And that may be one of the most liberating parts of his thought.”

I leaned forward slightly. “How so?”

“Because meaning can be found in many places.” He began counting examples. “It may emerge through work that contributes something worthwhile. Through creativity. Through service.”

I nodded.

He continued, “Meaning can also emerge through experience. Love. Friendship. Beauty. Nature. Genuine encounters with other people.” Then he paused for a while and added, “And sometimes, when suffering truly cannot be removed, meaning may emerge through the way a person chooses to meet that suffering.”

I frowned slightly. “That sounds dangerous.”

“In what way?”

“It could sound as though suffering itself is good.”

He nodded immediately. “That’s why we have to be careful.”

I appreciated the answer. There was no romanticizing pain. “If suffering can be prevented, treated, corrected, reduced, or resisted,” he continued, “then responsibility may require exactly that. There is no virtue in preserving avoidable suffering simply because it might be meaningful.”

That felt balanced. “Then attitude becomes important when the situation genuinely cannot be changed.”

“Precisely.”

I thought about losses people carry. A loved one who cannot be returned. A diagnosis that cannot be erased. A limitation that must be lived with. An irreversible chapter of life. “What then?” I asked.

He looked at me quietly. “Then the question becomes: How will I meet what I cannot remove?”

I found myself thinking about several people I knew. One had lost much of the independence they once enjoyed because of illness. Another had suffered a loss that permanently altered the shape of their life. Neither person seemed happy about what had happened. Nor should they have been. Yet both possessed a dignity that did not depend on pretending the suffering was good. Perhaps meaning, in those moments, was not found in the circumstance itself. Perhaps it was found in the way they carried it. “Meaning is larger than usefulness,” I said.

“Much larger.”

That distinction felt especially important. We live in a culture that often measures worth through productivity. What have you built? What have you produced? How much have you accomplished? Those questions matter. But if they become the only questions, what happens when productivity becomes impossible? What happens during illness? Disability? Old age? Dependence? Would meaningfulness disappear simply because output decreased? Frankl’s vision suggested otherwise. A person can create something meaningful. A person can love meaningfully. A person can receive beauty meaningfully. A person can endure suffering meaningfully. The possibilities were larger than productivity alone. I found that reassuring. It meant meaning was not postponed until some future day when I finally accomplished something impressive. It might be present in an ordinary afternoon. A sincere conversation. A responsibility handled well. A moment of honesty. A difficult choice made faithfully. A beautiful sunset actually noticed rather than rushed past.

He seemed to sense the direction of my thoughts. “Why do you think people postpone meaning?” He asked.

I smiled. “Because we associate it with something big.”

“Go on.”

“One day I’ll discover my purpose. One day my work will matter. One day I’ll do something important.”

He nodded. “And what happens to today?”

I laughed. “It becomes something to get through.”

That answer felt a little too familiar. For years I had treated the present as preparation for some future significance. Perhaps meaning was always waiting somewhere beyond the next milestone. Frankl’s perspective challenged that assumption. Instead of asking only, What do I want from life?, it invited another question: What is life asking of me right now?

When I asked how that worked in practice, he offered examples: “If someone needs to be heard, meaning may lie in listening well.”

I nodded.

“If a piece of work requires integrity, meaning may lie in doing it honestly.”

“Yes.”

“If you’re witnessing something beautiful, meaning may lie in being present enough to receive it.”

I smiled and asked, “And if I’m facing something I cannot change?”

“Meaning may lie in the kind of person you choose to remain while carrying it.”

The idea had become surprisingly concrete. Meaning was no longer a distant mission statement. It was this person. This responsibility. This situation. This response.

Eventually I asked him something else: “If meaning matters so much, why do we choose comfort instead?”

He smiled and said, “Because comfort usually asks less of us.”

The answer was immediately understandable. Distraction is often easier than reflection. Entertainment is often easier than contribution. Scrolling is often easier than learning. Avoiding a difficult conversation is often easier than having one. Comfort is immediate. Meaning usually asks for participation.

“But comfort isn’t the enemy,” he added.

“No?”

“Of course not. A meaningful life can include rest, pleasure, laughter, friendship, leisure, and joy,” he said. “The problem arises when ease becomes the standard by which everything is judged.”

That felt true. Many meaningful parts of life are not easy. Parenting can be exhausting. Learning can be frustrating. Keeping promises can be inconvenient. Creating something worthwhile can require years of effort. Yet afterward these experiences often leave behind a kind of fullness that passive comfort rarely provides.

“Not easier,” I said. “But fuller.”

He nodded.

I remembered a man I once knew who changed careers. The new work paid less, involved more uncertainty, and demanded more effort. When I asked why he seemed happier, he replied with a sentence I never forgot: “For the first time, I feel useful.”

I shared that story.

He smiled and said, “That may have been one source of meaning for him.”

“Not the only one?”

“No. People are not machines whose worth depends on output.”

Again, the idea widened. A human life could matter without becoming impressive. A person could matter during seasons of giving and seasons of receiving. Presence mattered. Love mattered. Gratitude mattered. Dignity mattered. The way joy was received mattered. The way suffering was carried mattered.

As I reflected on my own life, I noticed something. Some days filled with entertainment left almost no lasting impression. They were enjoyable enough, but strangely thin. Other days contained very little excitement, yet remained memorable because of a meaningful conversation, a period of concentrated learning, an act of service, a moment of beauty, or a responsibility taken seriously. Those days were not always happier. But they felt more inhabited. I had participated in them rather than merely consumed them.

As our conversation drew to a close, I returned to my original question. “So why do people who seem to have everything still feel empty?”

He thought for a while before answering. “Sometimes because what they have answers questions the human heart was never ultimately asking.”

I waited.

“Money answers, ‘What can I afford?’ Comfort answers, ‘How can I reduce inconvenience?’ Status answers, ‘How am I regarded?’ Pleasure answers, ‘What feels good right now?'” Then he added quietly: “But none of them necessarily answers, ‘What is worth giving myself to?'”

That seemed to bring the entire conversation together. The problem was never pleasure. Or comfort. Or success. Or wealth. The problem was expecting them to carry a weight they were never designed to carry.

Later, I reflected on our conversation. When restlessness appears, perhaps the first question should not always be: How can I feel better? Sometimes another question deserves to stand beside it: What am I living for right now? What matters in this moment? What is being asked of me here? Is there something worth loving, serving, creating, receiving, or enduring that I have stopped noticing?

Meaning does not eliminate pain. It does not guarantee happiness. It does not replace treatment when treatment is needed. But it can provide direction where comfort alone cannot. Perhaps human beings need more than a pleasant life. We need a life that points somewhere. Something worth loving. Something worth serving. Something worth creating. Something worth receiving with gratitude. And when suffering truly cannot be removed, some way of meeting it that allows us to remain human rather than be defined entirely by what has happened.

Comfort can make life easier. Meaning helps us understand what makes the living worthwhile.

 

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Not Punishment—A Call to Return

Not Punishment — A Call to Return

 

 

 

 

یہ مضمون اردو میں پڑھیں

I asked the question with a heaviness I could not conceal: “Why is this happening to me?” I said. “What have I done to deserve it?”

He allowed the question to remain between us for a few moments, as though the assumption behind it needed to be examined before the event itself could be understood.

Then he asked quietly, “What makes you think that, in this life, people receive only what they deserve?”

I looked at him, surprised.

“Isn’t that how it works?”

“Not entirely,” he replied. “Some consequences in this life do arise from our own choices. But this world is not the place where every person receives the full reward or punishment they deserve. If it were, every good deed would receive its complete reward here, every wrongdoing would meet its full consequence here, and every moral account would be settled before death. But that is clearly not how this life has been arranged. The righteous may suffer, wrongdoers may prosper for a time, and children may experience hardships they did nothing to bring upon themselves. Final recompense belongs elsewhere.”

I sat quietly with that. Until then, I had not really questioned the assumption beneath my words. Something painful had happened, so I had instinctively looked backward, searching for the offense that might explain it.

He continued, “Before you conclude that a hardship is a punishment, ask whether you actually know why it has come. It may be a trial. It may be the natural consequence of a choice. It may interrupt a direction that would otherwise have harmed you. It may expose something you have been refusing to see.”

He paused before adding, “Or its full meaning may simply be something God has not made known to us.”

That possibility unsettled me. I had been so eager to explain the event that I had never stopped to ask whether I possessed enough knowledge to explain it at all. Something painful enters our lives, and the mind immediately begins searching for a reason. A plan fails. A relationship becomes strained. A decision produces an unwelcome consequence. Something we relied upon is suddenly taken away. Almost instinctively, we ask whether God is displeased with us, whether we are being punished, whether the hardship is the price of some mistake. There was something final about the way I had been thinking.

If this was punishment, then the verdict had already been delivered. The past had been judged, the consequence had arrived, and all that remained was to endure it under the weight of guilt.

He was asking me to leave room for another possibility. “Even when a difficulty follows something you have done,” he said, “why assume that its only purpose is to make you suffer?”

I did not answer.

“A consequence can hurt and still contain mercy. It may show you what comfort had allowed you to ignore. It may stop you from continuing in a direction that was slowly taking you farther away. It may wake you while there is still time to turn.”

I began to see the distinction. Punishment, as I had imagined it, looked only backward: You did this. Now you must pay. A reminder could also look backward, but only in order to make a different future possible: This is where you have been heading. Is this still where you want to go? That did not make the pain unreal. It did not mean that every difficulty could be neatly interpreted. But it changed the posture with which I stood before it.

He gave me an example. “Imagine a child walking toward a dangerous road,” he said. “The parent calls out, but the child continues. The parent raises his voice, runs toward him, and pulls him back sharply. The child may be startled. He may even experience the intervention as unpleasant. But what is the parent trying to do?”

“Protect him.”

“Exactly. The discomfort is not the purpose. The return is.”

It made sense. I began to wonder how often I had judged an interruption only by how it felt. If it disturbed me, I called it harmful. If it frustrated my plans, I assumed something had gone wrong. Yet perhaps some interruptions had stopped me from continuing in directions whose consequences I had not fully understood.

He was careful, however, not to let me turn that thought into another formula. “Do not conclude that every hardship means you have sinned,” he said. “And do not assume that every setback is a direct warning from God. Prophets were tested. Good people suffer. Some pain comes through the wrongdoing of others. Some comes through the ordinary conditions of life.”

“Then how am I supposed to interpret it?” I asked.

“With humility.”

I waited.

“You may not know why it happened. But you can still ask what it calls you to do now.”

That felt both more modest and more demanding. It was easier to give the event a label. If I called it a punishment, I could collapse into guilt. If I called it meaningless, I could collapse into resentment. But if I asked what response was now required of me, I had to become attentive. Perhaps I needed patience. Perhaps I needed to repair something I had damaged. Perhaps I needed to abandon a habit I had been defending. Perhaps I needed courage to endure something that was not of my making. Perhaps I needed to seek help, set a boundary, apologize, forgive, or simply accept what could no longer be changed. The event did not always tell me why it had happened. But it could still become a moment in which I examined where I stood and where I was heading.

He used an Arabic word. “Tanbīh,” he said.

“A warning?” I asked.

“A warning, yes. But also an alert. Something that wakes your attention.”

I thought about moments in my own life when events had forced me to see what ordinary comfort had concealed. There had been habits I knew were unhealthy but continued because their cost had not yet become visible. There were relationships I neglected because I assumed they would always remain. There were compromises I justified because nothing immediately seemed to follow from them. Then, at some point, something interrupted the pattern. At the time, I experienced mainly the discomfort. Looking back, I could sometimes see that the interruption had made honesty possible.

Not every painful event yielded such a clear lesson. Some remained difficult to understand. But even then, I began to see the value of refusing to waste the moment.

“If a consequence awakens you,” he said, “then the door has not closed.”

The sentence carried more hope than I expected. Even when I had contributed to my own difficulty, the story did not have to end with the mistake. There was still room to acknowledge, repair, and return. The consequence did not have to become the final definition of my life.

He then spoke of tawbah.

I had often understood repentance mainly as asking forgiveness after doing something wrong. He described it more fully.

“Tawbah means return,” he said. “You recognize that you have moved away from where you should be, and you turn back.”

There was movement in that understanding. Repentance was not remaining permanently before the past in shame. It was allowing what I had seen about the past to change the direction of the future.

“Then remorse has a purpose?” I asked.

“Yes. It should soften you, not imprison you. It should help you return, not convince you that return is no longer possible.”

I sat quietly with that.

Perhaps this was the difference between remorse that heals and guilt that destroys. One says, Something needs to change. The other says, You are beyond change. The first can become movement. The second becomes paralysis.

After a while, I asked the question that still troubled me: “But why must some reminders be so painful? Why can’t we learn through something gentler?”

“Sometimes we do,” he said. “But gentle reminders are easy to postpone.”

I knew immediately what he meant. There were truths I had understood for years without allowing them to alter my conduct. I had heard advice, felt unease, noticed warning signs, and still continued. Knowledge can remain abstract for a very long time. Sometimes a consequence makes what was abstract suddenly personal.

He was not glorifying suffering. He was not saying that pain was desirable or that we should passively accept every harmful situation. He was simply refusing to let pain become empty when it could become instructive. “The difficulty itself may not be good,” he said, “but something good may still be asked of you within it.”

That sentence gave me a more careful way to think. I did not need to call the hardship a blessing while I was still bleeding from it. I did not need to pretend that loss was pleasant or injustice acceptable. But neither did I have to assume that suffering had left me with nothing except suffering. There could still be a response.

He suggested a question: “When something difficult happens, do not ask only, ‘Why is this happening to me?’ Ask also, ‘What is being asked of me now?’”

The first question searched for an explanation I might never receive. The second brought me back to a responsibility I could still fulfill. It shifted my attention from speculation about the hidden purpose of the event toward the moral possibilities that remained within the present moment.

I began trying to practice that. When a mistake produced an embarrassing consequence, I asked what needed to be repaired. When a plan failed, I asked whether the moment required perseverance, reconsideration, or acceptance. When I found myself repeatedly disturbed by the same pattern, I asked whether I had been refusing to notice something about myself. The answers did not always come quickly. Sometimes I discovered that I had indeed drifted. At other times, I realized that the hardship was not the result of anything I had done, and that my task was simply to endure it without surrendering trust, dignity, or compassion. Either way, the question helped me engage with the moment instead of merely passing judgment upon it.

Before we parted, he returned to the words with which we had begun. “You asked what you had done to deserve this,” he said. “Perhaps that is not always the question.”

“What is the question, then?”

He looked at me gently and said, “Will this bring you nearer—or will you allow it to take you farther away?”

I understood then that he was not offering me a complete explanation for suffering. He was giving me a way to stand within it. I could not always know whether a difficulty was a consequence, a test, a warning, or part of a wisdom I could not yet see. But I could refuse to let uncertainty drive me into despair or distance from God.

Sometimes the pain may expose a path from which I need to return. Sometimes it may ask me to remain faithful on a path I should not abandon. And sometimes its meaning may remain hidden while the response it requires becomes clear.

Now, when hardship comes, I try not to rush toward the conclusion that I am being punished. I pause before passing judgment upon the event—or upon myself. Perhaps this is not a door being closed. Perhaps it is a moment in which another door has quietly opened: the door of reflection, correction, patience, and return.

The question is no longer only: Why has this happened to me? It is also: What response will bring me nearer to God now?

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The Boundary of Responsibility

The Boundary of Responsibility

 

 

 

 

یہ مضمون اردو میں پڑھیں

The conversation stayed with me long after we had parted. I understood, at least in principle, that my role was to influence rather than to control. There was relief in that realization. Yet another question kept returning to my mind. If I am not responsible for changing another person, then what am I responsible for? The next time we met, I asked him exactly that. “If their decisions are ultimately theirs,” I said, “then where does my responsibility end?”

He did not answer immediately. Instead, he asked, “When you speak to someone you care about, what do you believe your duty is?”

I began listing the obvious things. “To be honest.”

He nodded.

“To be kind.”

Another nod.

“To explain clearly.”

“Good.”

“To remain patient.”

Again he nodded. As I continued thinking, I realized something. Everything I had mentioned described my own actions. None of them described the other person’s response.

He seemed pleased that I had noticed. “Your responsibility,” he said quietly, “always lies within your own conduct.”

The simplicity of the statement concealed how easily I had forgotten it. “So whether they listen…”

“…is not yours.”

“Whether they agree…”

“…is not yours.”

“Whether they change…”

He smiled and said, “…is certainly not yours.”

I sat quietly, allowing the thought to settle. For years I had allowed my sense of responsibility to expand far beyond my own actions. Every time someone ignored good advice, I instinctively felt I had not explained it well enough. Every time they repeated the same mistake, I assumed I needed to become more persuasive. It never occurred to me that I had crossed a boundary.

He drew an imaginary line on the table with his finger. “On this side,” he said, “is everything entrusted to you.”

I waited.

“Your intention. Your sincerity. Your wisdom. Your words. Your patience. Your character.”

Then he moved his finger to the other side. “And here…,” He paused for a moment, and then added, “…begins another person’s freedom.”

The image stayed with me. It was such a simple boundary, yet I had crossed it countless times without realizing it.

He then shared something personal. “There was a time,” he said, “when I lost my temper with a close friend.”

That surprised me.

“I had spoken to him several times about a decision that was harming him. I explained my concerns carefully. I listened to his perspective. I prayed for him. Yet nothing changed.”

“What happened?”

“One day he repeated the same mistake, and I became angry.” He looked down for a moment before continuing. “I wasn’t angry because he had made another mistake.” He paused, and then said, “I was angry because I had quietly begun expecting that my words should produce change.”

I recognized the feeling immediately. Not the situation. The expectation. How many times had I done the same thing? I had mistaken sincere effort for guaranteed results. He looked at me and said something I have remembered ever since: “Your responsibility does not grow simply because another person’s resistance grows.”

That sentence exposed a habit I had never questioned. Whenever someone failed to respond, I assumed I had to do more. Explain again. Persuade again. Push a little harder. As though another person’s reluctance automatically increased my obligation.

But it doesn’t. My responsibility remains what it always was: to act with sincerity, wisdom and respect. Nothing less. But also nothing more.

“But isn’t that difficult?” I asked. “How do you care deeply without feeling responsible for the outcome?”

He smiled. “You keep caring.” I waited. I knew something more was coming. Then, he said, “You simply stop carrying what was never yours.”

There was an extraordinary freedom in that distinction. He wasn’t asking me to become detached. He wasn’t telling me to stop advising, encouraging, or supporting. He was asking me to stop measuring my faithfulness by another person’s response.

As I reflected on countless conversations from my own life, I realized how often I had evaluated myself by outcomes I could never control. If they listened, I felt successful. If they ignored me, I felt defeated. Both judgments rested on the same mistake. I had allowed someone else’s choices to become the measure of my own responsibility. Now the boundary seemed much clearer. My task is to speak truthfully. To listen carefully. To choose my words wisely. To remain respectful. To be patient. To pray. Beyond that, another person’s journey belongs to them.

As we finished our conversation, he left me with one final thought: “The clearer this boundary becomes,” he said, “the more peacefully you will be able to love people.”

I didn’t fully understand the sentence then. But I knew another question had begun to form. If my responsibility ends with sincere effort…

What happens when that effort seems to accomplish nothing?

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Your Role Is Influence, Not Control

Your Role Is Influence, Not Control

 

 

 

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I said it with a mixture of frustration and disappointment. “I’ve explained this so many times,” I told him. “I’ve tried different approaches. I’ve been patient. I’ve been firm. I’ve reasoned with them. I’ve reminded them. But nothing changes.”

He listened without interrupting.

“I honestly don’t know what else I’m supposed to do,” I said, after waiting for almost a minute.

He remained silent for a moment. It was as though he wanted the question to settle before responding. Then he asked quietly, “What is it that you’re trying to achieve?”

The question seemed too obvious. “I want them to change,” I replied.

He nodded, but instead of responding, he asked another question. “And do you think that is your responsibility?”

I looked at him, slightly puzzled. “What do you mean? If I care about someone, of course I want them to change.”

“I didn’t ask what you wanted,” he said gently. “I asked whether it is your responsibility.”

I wasn’t sure how to answer. Until that moment, I had never separated the two. Caring for someone and wanting them to change had always seemed inseparable. If someone I loved was making poor decisions, wasn’t it natural to feel responsible for helping them become different?

Perhaps he sensed my confusion. “Tell me,” he said, “have you ever changed simply because someone else wanted you to?”

I smiled sheepishly and said, “No.”

“What made you change?” He asked.

I thought for a while. “Usually…” I said slowly, “I changed when I became convinced that I needed to.”

He nodded again. “So the real decision was yours.”

“Yes.”

“And yet,” he continued, “you expect other people to change merely because you have explained something well.”

I laughed quietly. When he put it that way, it sounded surprisingly unreasonable.

He wasn’t suggesting that explanations don’t matter. Of course they do. Advice can illuminate something we have failed to notice. A sincere conversation can open a door that had remained closed. Sometimes another person’s words become the beginning of a profound change. But none of those things actually cause the change. At best, they invite it. That distinction had never been clear to me before.

He seemed to notice the thought forming in my mind. “You can present an idea,” he said. “You can explain it patiently. You can answer questions. You can even become an example of what you are trying to teach. But you cannot decide on another person’s behalf.”

For a while neither of us spoke. As I reflected on his words, something uncomfortable began to surface. The truth was that I wasn’t merely trying to help. I was trying to make sure they changed. Until that moment, I had never admitted that to myself. I had described my efforts as concern, sincerity, or care. And all of those were genuine. But hidden beneath them was another expectation, one I had never questioned. If I explained things clearly enough… If I found the right words… If I remained patient long enough… Surely they would change.

Looking back, I realized that most of my frustration had not come from their behavior. It had come from the gap between my expectation and reality.

He offered an example. “Imagine a father whose son is making poor choices. The father stays awake at night thinking, ‘Perhaps I haven’t explained it well enough. Maybe I need to speak more firmly. Maybe I need one more conversation.'” He paused for a while and then said, “Do you think the father’s desire is wrong?”

“No,” I replied immediately.

“Neither do I,” he said. “His love is real. His concern is real. But if he begins to believe that his son’s transformation depends entirely upon him, love quietly turns into something else.”

“Control?” I offered.

He smiled and said, “Yes.”

The word lingered in my mind. Control rarely announces itself. It often disguises itself as concern. We convince ourselves that we are simply trying to help, while quietly expecting another person to become who we think they should be. When they don’t, disappointment slowly becomes frustration, frustration becomes pressure, and pressure begins to damage the very relationship we were trying to protect.

I sat there thinking about conversations I had repeated over and over again. Each time, I believed I was offering guidance. But each unsuccessful attempt felt strangely personal, as though their decision reflected my own failure. Now I was beginning to understand why.

I had unconsciously taken responsibility for something that had never belonged to me.

He broke the silence. “You can influence people,” he said. “Sometimes deeply. Sometimes for a lifetime. But influence and control are not the same thing.”

I repeated the sentence quietly to myself. Influence… Not control. For the first time, I realized that I had spent years confusing the two. Perhaps that is why I had become so exhausted. Trying to influence someone requires sincerity, wisdom, and patience. Trying to control them requires carrying a burden no human being was ever meant to carry.

As we stood to leave, he said one final thing. “The moment you believe that another person’s change is your responsibility, you begin carrying a weight that does not belong to you.”

I walked away thinking about that. Maybe the deepest form of care is not found in trying to control another person’s journey, but in faithfully offering what we can, while respecting that the journey itself is still theirs.

Until that day, I had believed that caring meant making sure people changed. Now I was beginning to see that caring and controlling are not the same thing.

And perhaps wisdom begins when we finally learn the difference.

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What Lies Beneath “I Don’t Feel Like It”

What Lies Beneath "I Don't Feel Like It"

 

 

 

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I said it casually, almost as though it settled the matter. “I just don’t feel like doing it.”

He did not respond immediately. Instead, he looked at me for a few moments before asking, “Are you sure that’s the real reason?”

I shrugged. “What else could it be?”

“That,” he said quietly, “is exactly what you need to find out.”

His answer stayed with me. Until then, I had never questioned the sentence itself. If I didn’t feel like doing something, I assumed I had already explained the problem. Yet his question suggested that perhaps I had only described my experience without understanding it.

We say those words so naturally that they hardly attract our attention. “I don’t feel like studying.” “I don’t feel like working.” “I don’t feel like having that conversation.” “I don’t feel like starting.” The sentence sounds honest because it accurately describes how we feel in that moment. But does it really explain why we feel that way? Or does it simply bring the conversation with ourselves to an end before it has truly begun?

He explained it in a way that made me reconsider the whole issue. “When you say you don’t feel like doing something,” he said, “you are stopping the inquiry too early.” I realized how often I had done exactly that. Instead of becoming curious about my resistance, I had accepted it as the final explanation. Once I had said, I don’t feel like it, I rarely asked another question.

“Don’t simply accept the feeling,” he continued. “Analyze it.”

That sounded easier than it actually was. Analysis requires honesty, and honesty often asks us to look beyond the most convenient explanation. He began asking me questions I had never thought to ask myself. “Why don’t you feel like doing it? What exactly are you resisting? What do you imagine will happen if you begin? And what would become uncomfortable if you stopped avoiding it?”

That last question changed the direction of my thinking. Until then, I had been looking at the task itself. He was asking me to look at what the task awakened within me. Perhaps I was not avoiding the task as much as the discomfort I was associating with it.

He explained that many of our “I don’t feel like it” moments conceal something deeper. Sometimes it is fear. Sometimes uncertainty. Sometimes the possibility of failure, embarrassment, or disappointment. At other times, it is simply a lack of clarity. We have never truly decided that the task matters, so our minds naturally drift away from it. The behavior may appear to be a lack of motivation, but the underlying cause may be something entirely different. He was careful not to reduce everything to a single explanation. “Procrastination,” he said, “is not one problem. It can have a variety of causes.”

The more I reflected on that statement, the more obvious it became. Two people may postpone exactly the same task for entirely different reasons. One may be afraid of failing. Another may feel overwhelmed because he does not know where to begin. Someone else may simply find the task meaningless. Outwardly, the behavior looks identical. Inwardly, the reasons may have very little in common. If we assume every delay is laziness, we stop looking before we have understood the real issue.

He offered a simple example. “If you don’t feel like studying,” he said, “ask yourself: do you not feel like studying, or do you not feel like studying this?”

I smiled because I immediately recognized myself in the question. There were subjects I could spend hours exploring without noticing the passage of time, while others felt exhausting after only a few minutes. Perhaps the problem was not my ability to study, but my relationship with what I was studying.

“But don’t stop there,” he added. “Sometimes the reason is simply that you’re not interested. And sometimes the lack of interest is hiding something deeper.”

That was a more difficult possibility to consider. There are things we avoid not because they are unimportant, but because they expose us. A difficult conversation may force us to admit we were wrong. A demanding project may reveal the limits of our ability. An important opportunity may entail the possibility of failure. It is often easier to say, “I don’t feel like it,” than to admit, “I’m afraid of what this might reveal about me.”

“Your comfort zone,” he said, “is not merely a place where life feels easy. It is also the place where your limitations remain undisturbed.”

I had never thought of comfort in that way. We usually associate it with safety, yet comfort can quietly become a prison if we never question it. The things we avoid are not always beyond our ability. Sometimes they simply require us to move beyond what feels familiar.

As I looked back over my own life, I began to notice a pattern. There were conversations I repeatedly postponed, responsibilities I kept delaying, and opportunities I quietly stepped away from. Each time, I had given myself the same explanation: I just don’t feel like it. The sentence sounded reasonable, but now it seemed incomplete. It described my reluctance without explaining it.

One day I decided to test what he had been saying. There was a task I had postponed for weeks. Every morning I told myself I would do it tomorrow, when I was in a better mood or had more energy. This time, instead of postponing it again, I asked myself a different question. What exactly am I avoiding?

The answer came more quickly than I expected. It wasn’t the task. It was the possibility of not doing it well. That realization did not suddenly make me enthusiastic, nor did it remove my reluctance. But it did make the problem visible. Instead of struggling against a vague lack of motivation, I could now see what I was actually dealing with. And once something becomes visible, it can also become manageable.

I did not wait until I felt motivated. I simply began with a small step. The discomfort did not disappear immediately, but it no longer controlled the decision. I had begun to understand the difference between following a feeling and understanding it. Only then did I fully appreciate something he had said earlier: “Growth often lies in doing what you don’t feel like doing.”

He was not suggesting that we should ignore our feelings or force ourselves blindly through life. Feelings often contain valuable information. The question is whether we are willing to understand what they are telling us. Sometimes they reveal that we genuinely need rest. Sometimes they show us that a task lacks meaning. But at other times, they reveal the very place where we have become limited by fear, comfort, or avoidance. Those are the moments that invite growth.

Since then, I have become more cautious whenever I hear myself say, “I don’t feel like it.” I no longer treat the sentence as an answer. I treat it as the beginning of an inquiry. What am I really resisting? What am I afraid might happen? What is this feeling trying to protect me from? The answers are not always immediate, but asking the questions changes the conversation I have with myself.

Perhaps that is the real lesson. Our resistance is rarely random. It points toward something that deserves to be understood. Sometimes it reveals a genuine limitation. Sometimes it uncovers a mistaken belief. Sometimes it simply exposes a fear that has quietly been making decisions on our behalf.

The next time you hear yourself say, “I don’t feel like it,” resist the temptation to stop there. Pause for a moment. Let the sentence become the beginning of a conversation rather than the end of one. Because on the other side of that conversation lies something far more valuable than discipline alone.

It is self-understanding. And lasting change almost always begins there.

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The Day Urgency Took Over My Life

The Day Urgency Took Over My Life

 

 

 

 

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I said it half in complaint, half in resignation: “I don’t have time. There’s just too much to do.”

He just asked one question: “Too much of what?”

I paused for a moment and then said, “Important things.”

He shook his head gently. Then he asked, “Are they important, or have they just become urgent?”

That question made me realize something that I was missing. We often use the words important and urgent as if they mean the same thing. But they don’t. And the difference between them quietly determines whether we live our lives, or whether our lives run us.

He explained it in a way that made it impossible to ignore. “Most people,” he said, “don’t lose control of their time because they are busy. They lose control because they respond to urgency instead of importance.”

That sounded simple. Until I began to observe my own life. Urgent things demand attention. They come with pressure. Deadlines. Consequences. An email that must be replied to. A call that cannot be missed. A task that is due tomorrow. They create a sense of immediacy. Important things, on the other hand, are quieter. They don’t shout. They don’t demand. They don’t threaten. They wait. Planning. Health. Learning. Relationships. Spiritual growth. They matter deeply. But because they are not urgent, we keep postponing them.

He drew a simple picture. “Imagine a grid,” he said. “One axis is urgency. The other is importance.”

I nodded.

“There are things that are both urgent and important,” he continued. “These usually take over your time.”

Naturally.

But then he said something that changed the way I saw everything. “Most things become urgent and important,” he said, “because you didn’t give them time when they were important but not urgent.”

That was uncomfortable. Because it meant that many of my “urgent crises” were not accidents. They were consequences. He gave a simple example: Tax returns.

I smiled immediately. Everyone knows the pattern. There is plenty of time in the beginning. Weeks, sometimes months. And yet, we delay. I’ll do it tomorrow. I’ll start next week. There’s still time. And then suddenly, there isn’t. The last week arrives. And everything changes. Now it is no longer optional. It is no longer flexible. It is no longer manageable. Now it is urgent. And because it is also important—it takes over everything. Plans are canceled. Commitments are dropped. Energy is drained. Not because we chose it. But because we are forced into it.

“That is the difference,” he said. “When something is important but not urgent, you choose to do it. When it becomes urgent, you have to do it.” That shift—from choice to compulsion—is where we lose control.

I began to notice how often this pattern repeated itself. Health. When everything is fine, we delay exercise. We ignore rest. We postpone care. Then one day, something happens. Now it becomes urgent. And suddenly, it demands attention, not on our terms, but on its own. Relationships. We don’t invest time when things are stable. We assume they will remain that way. Until distance grows. Misunderstandings deepen. And now it becomes urgent. But by then, the cost is higher. The more I reflected, the more I realized something uncomfortable. Urgency is often not the problem. Neglect is.

I asked him the question that naturally followed: “So why do we do this? Why do we ignore important things until they become urgent?”

He didn’t answer immediately. “Because of what is inside you,” he said finally.

That surprised me. “I thought it was just laziness,” I said.

He smiled. “It is rarely that simple.” He explained that behind procrastination, there are often hidden patterns. Fear of failure. Fear of imperfection. Lack of clarity. Avoidance of discomfort.

We don’t just delay tasks. We avoid what they represent. A difficult conversation. A challenging commitment. A responsibility we are not ready to face. So we postpone. And in postponing, we create urgency.

He suggested something that felt both simple and difficult. “Observe,” he said. “What stops you when something is important but not urgent?”

That question requires honesty. Because the answer is not always comfortable. I tried it myself. There was something I had been delaying, a task that required focus and discipline. Every day, I found reasons to postpone it. I’m too tired today. I’ll do it when I have more time. I need the right mood. But when I looked deeper, I saw something else. I wasn’t avoiding the task. I was avoiding the discomfort it brought. Once I saw that, something changed. The resistance didn’t disappear. But it became visible. And what becomes visible becomes manageable.

He then gave a very practical suggestion. “Don’t wait for large blocks of time,” he said.

That was interesting.

“We often think,” he continued, “that important things require big commitments. But they don’t.” Fifteen minutes. Half an hour. Small, consistent effort. If you have two months, and you give fifteen minutes daily, the task will move forward. And more importantly, you remain in control. That was the key. Control. Not over time itself. But over how you engage with it.

I began experimenting with this idea. Instead of waiting for the “perfect time,” I started giving small, regular attention to important things. A little planning. A little reading. A little reflection. It didn’t feel dramatic. But it felt different. Because nothing was piling up. Nothing was turning into a crisis. Nothing was taking over my life unexpectedly. Over time, I noticed a subtle shift. I was no longer reacting. I was choosing. And that made all the difference. In the end, what he had shown me was not just a time management technique. It was a way of living. A way of staying ahead of urgency. A way of honoring what truly matters before it demands attention.

Now, when I feel overwhelmed, I don’t ask: Why is there so much to do? I ask: What did I ignore when it was still manageable? And, more importantly, what is important right now, before it becomes urgent? Because in that question lies a quiet truth.

You don’t lose control of your life in a moment. You lose it slowly. Every time you choose urgency over importance.

And you regain it the same way: One small, deliberate choice at a time.

 

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When Worry Becomes a Habit

When Worry Becomes a Habit

 

 

 

 

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I said it half-jokingly, but there was some truth beneath it, “I think I’ve just become a worried person,” I told him. “Even when nothing is wrong, something in me feels uneasy.”

He didn’t smile. “That,” he said quietly, “is how it begins.”

I looked at him, a little unsettled, and asked, “What do you mean?”

He leaned forward. “You don’t just feel worried. You can actually train your mind—and your body—to produce worry.”

That stopped me. I had always assumed worry came from situations. Something happens. Something goes wrong. Something uncertain appears. And the mind reacts. But he was suggesting something far more sobering: Worry, repeated often enough, becomes a default state.

He explained it in a way I could not ignore. “When you keep living in your concerns,” he said, “your body keeps releasing certain chemicals, like cortisol.”

I had heard that before, but never like this.

“In small amounts, these chemicals are useful. They prepare you. They alert you. They help you respond.” He said.

That made sense.

“But,” he paused, “when they are released excessively, repeatedly, they stop serving you. They start shaping you.”

That sentence stayed with me. They don’t just respond to your life. They begin to define it.

He gave an example that cut close.

“Think of someone constantly worried. Always thinking, what if something goes wrong? What if this fails?” At first, it seems like caution. Responsibility. Even intelligence. But slowly, something shifts. The mind begins to expect problems, even when none exist. The body begins to produce the same stress response, even without a trigger. “And then,” he said, “you reach a point where anxiety appears without a reason.” Not because something happened. But because the system has been trained.

I asked him something that had been gnawing at me, “So you’re saying a person can become addicted to stress?”

He nodded. “Yes. Not consciously. But biologically and psychologically.”

That was hard to accept. We don’t think of worry as something we crave. We think of it as something we suffer from.

But he reframed it. “When your body repeatedly experiences a certain chemical state, it begins to recognize it as familiar. And familiarity starts feeling normal, even when it’s unhealthy.” That’s when it becomes dangerous. Because now, you don’t just respond to stress. You start generating it.

He gave another example: “If someone constantly indulges sadness, revisits painful memories, keeps narrating the same story of loss…”

I knew where this was going. “…they don’t just feel sad. They move toward a depressive state.”

The same applies to anxiety. If a person repeatedly entertains anxious thoughts, imagines worst-case scenarios, stays mentally in the future, constantly scanning for danger, then anxiety stops being occasional. It becomes habitual. It becomes automatic.

That word—“automatic”—explained so much. Why do you wake up uneasy without knowing the reason? Why does your mind jump to worry even in calm moments? Why peace sometimes feels unfamiliar, almost uncomfortable. Because the system has been trained otherwise.

I asked the question that mattered most, “If this pattern has developed—how do you undo it?”

He didn’t hesitate. “The same way it was built.” He said. “Through thought.”

That was both simple and overwhelming. Because it meant the solution was not external. It was internal.

He explained that emotions may feel powerful, but they are not independent. They are outcomes. They follow thoughts. They follow interpretations. “So if you want to change the emotional pattern, you have to change the thinking pattern.”

No shortcut. No emotional switch to turn off anxiety. No quick escape from a trained mind. Only the slow, deliberate work of redirecting your thoughts. He offered something deeply practical. He said, “Start noticing what you think about the most.” Not occasionally. Not in extreme moments. But repeatedly. What occupies your mind when nothing urgent is happening? Fear? Uncertainty? Imagined problems? Because whatever you repeatedly think about, you are rehearsing. And whatever you rehearse, you are becoming.

I tried this for a few days. And I noticed something uncomfortable. My mind, left alone, drifted toward worry. Not because anything was wrong. But because that path was familiar. It was like a road used so often that it had become the default route. Changing it felt unnatural at first. Almost forced. But slowly, I began interrupting the pattern.

When a worrying thought appeared, I asked, “Is this useful?” “Is this something I can act on?” If not, I let it pass. Not suppressed it. Not fought it. Just didn’t follow it. It wasn’t easy. But it was possible.

He had said something earlier that I didn’t fully understand. “You have to decide whether you will chase the trigger or not.”

Now it made sense. The trigger will come. The thought will appear. The feeling will arise. But what happens next? That is where the choice lives. Over time, something began to change. Not dramatically. Not instantly. But noticeably. The intensity reduced. The frequency decreased. The recovery became quicker. Not because life had become easier. But because my mind was no longer constantly rehearsing the difficulty.

In the end, what he showed me was both sobering and empowering. Sobering, because my patterns were not accidental. They were built. Empowering, because they could be rebuilt. Worry is not just a reaction. It can become a habit. And like all habits, it can be unlearned. But only if you are willing to do the quiet, consistent work of changing how you think. Because the mind, left unattended, will train itself.

The only question is: In which direction?

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You Don’t Fix Emotions Directly

You Don’t Fix Emotions Directly

 

 

 

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I asked him something that had been bothering me for a while, “If thoughts affect emotions, and emotions affect thoughts… then can we work directly on emotions to fix our thinking? Can we calm emotions first, and let thoughts follow?”

He paused, not dismissing the question, but refining it. “What you call working on emotions,” he said, “is almost always cognitive work.”

That was not the answer I expected. I had assumed emotions were something immediate, something we feel and therefore something we should address at the level of feeling. But he was pointing somewhere deeper, somewhere less obvious.

He continued, “Emotions are not independent. They are outcomes.”

That word—outcomes—shifted the entire frame. He explained that what we experience as an emotion is actually the result of how we have perceived something. And that perception is not neutral. It is shaped by our thoughts, our interpretations, our past patterns, what he called our “construction.”

In other words, before an emotion appears, something has already happened inside. A meaning has been assigned. A judgment has been made. A pattern has been activated. And the emotion follows.

He gave a simple example.

Imagine you are walking into a dimly lit room and you see something coiled on the floor. Instantly, your body reacts—fear, tension, alertness. Your heart rate rises. In that moment, the emotion feels real. Immediate. Unquestionable. But what produced it? Not the object itself. The thought: “This is a snake.”

Now imagine the light turns on. You see clearly that it’s just a coiled wire. What happens to the fear? It begins to dissolve. Not because you worked on the fear, or told yourself to “calm down,” but because the perception and the accompanying thought changed.

That is the nature of emotions. They follow perception. This is why, he explained, working on emotions directly is often ineffective. You can try to suppress them, distract yourself, or temporarily soothe them, but unless the underlying thought or construction changes, the emotion will return.

So the real question is not: How do I stop feeling this? The real question is: What am I thinking that is producing this feeling? And sometimes, the answer is not obvious. He pointed out that many of our emotional reactions are driven not by conscious thoughts, but by unconscious patterns. These are patterns we have built over time through experiences, assumptions, and repeated interpretations. You may not consciously think, “People always disrespect me.” But if that pattern exists within you, even subtly, then a small comment from someone can trigger a strong emotional reaction. The emotion feels disproportionate. But the pattern explains it. This is why awareness becomes the first step.

He said, “When you ask yourself, ‘Why am I feeling this way?’ the answer is usually in your thoughts or your mental patterns.” And that requires reflection. Not reacting. Not suppressing. But observing.

Another example he gave stayed with me. He said, “Instead of trying to fix the immediate problem, bring your vision to life.”

At first, I didn’t fully understand.

Then he explained. When we are overwhelmed, we become consumed by the immediate situation: the argument, the setback, the failure. Our thoughts narrow. Our emotions intensify. But if, in that moment, we shift our thinking to a larger vision: What kind of person do I want to be? What is my long-term direction? something changes inside. The situation does not disappear. But its emotional weight begins to shift. Because now, the meaning has changed. Instead of “This is unbearable,” the thought becomes: “This is part of a larger journey.” And with that shift, the emotion softens. Again, not because we worked on the emotion. But because we changed the thought.

He also mentioned practices like meditation. I had always thought of meditation as a way to “calm emotions.” But he reframed it. “Even there,” he said, “what you are doing is controlling or pausing thoughts.” You are stepping back from the constant stream of thinking. You are creating space. And in that space, emotions begin to settle. But the mechanism is still cognitive. It is still about thoughts. That is why, he said, the most effective way to regulate emotions is to develop awareness of your thoughts and to gradually bring them under your influence. Not complete control, not instantly, but gradually.

This is not easy work. Because thoughts are fast. Patterns are deep. And emotions are convincing. When you feel something strongly, it feels true. It feels justified. It feels like reality. But often, it is not reality. It is an interpretation. And interpretations can be questioned.

I remember trying this myself in a small, everyday situation. Someone close to me said something that felt dismissive. Instantly, I felt irritation rising. My mind began building a narrative: They don’t respect me. They always do this. But this time, I paused. I asked myself: What exactly am I thinking right now? And I saw it. Not a fact. A pattern. I consciously replaced it with another possibility: Maybe they are distracted. Maybe they didn’t mean it that way. The emotion didn’t disappear instantly. But it softened. It lost its sharp edge. And more importantly, I didn’t react in a way I would later regret.

That small shift taught me something powerful. You don’t need to win over your emotions. You need to understand the thoughts behind them. And once you begin to see that, a different kind of control emerges. It is not control over what appears. But control over what you follow. Over time, as your constructions change, your emotional world changes with them. The storms become less frequent. The reactions become less intense. The recovery becomes quicker. Not because life becomes easier. But because your perception becomes clearer.

In the end, what he was telling me was simple, but not easy. You don’t fix emotions directly. You refine the way you see. And when you see differently, you begin to feel differently.

And when you feel differently, you begin to live differently.

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The Inner Work of Forgiveness

The Inner Work of Forgiveness

 

 

 

یہ مضمون اردو میں پڑھیں

I asked him a question that had been sitting uneasily inside me for a long time. The Qur’an tells us to forgive others, “Do you not wish that God should forgive you?” I understand the verse. I believe in it. But when someone hurts you, disrespects you, or damages your dignity, forgiveness does not come naturally. So, I asked him plainly: What does this actually look like in real life? How does one change the inner construction that makes forgiveness possible?

He paused, as he often does, and then said, “The first thing is to stop treating forgiveness as a single, flat concept.”

He could see the confusion on my face.

He explained that what we casually call forgiveness actually includes different inner responses that must be clearly distinguished. Confusing them is what creates emotional turmoil. “There is,” he said, “a difference between overlooking a mistake and fully forgiving someone.”

Overlooking, he explained, is often the first and most necessary step. It means choosing not to condemn, not to keep rehearsing the other person’s fault in your mind, not to keep building a case against them internally. Sometimes a person does not even realize they are wrong. Sometimes they sincerely believe that they are justified. In such cases, demanding remorse is unrealistic. “In those situations,” he said, “your responsibility is not to fix them. Your responsibility is to protect your own moral standard.” Overlooking does not mean approving. It means deciding not to descend to their level. I will not react with retaliation, bitterness, or inner contempt. It is a conscious choice to remain gentle without becoming naïve.

Then he moved to the second layer. “True forgiveness,” he said, “belongs to a different situation altogether.”

This applies when the other person recognizes their mistake, feels remorse, and comes forward to seek forgiveness. At that point, forgiveness is not partial. It is not conditional. It is not ‘I forgive you, but I will keep this on record.’ It is a clean release. He said something that struck deeply. “When someone asks forgiveness sincerely, they are doing exactly what you do when you stand before God.”

When I ask God for forgiveness, I do not hope for a half-erasure. I hope to be washed clean. I hope the burden is lifted, not merely reduced. And if that is the mercy I seek for myself, how can I justify offering a lesser version to others?

That question stayed with me.

He clarified something else that I had been carrying incorrectly. “Forgiveness does not cancel accountability,” he said. If someone knowingly commits wrong, they will answer for it before God, and sometimes in this world as well. Forgiving them does not mean denying justice or pretending harm did not occur. It means refusing to harbor hatred, vengeance, or a sense of moral superiority in your heart.

Then he brought up the Qur’anic context that gives this command its emotional weight. He reminded me of the verse in Surah An-Nur revealed after a deeply painful incident: the false allegations against Aisha (ra). The damage was not abstract; it was personal, social, and humiliating. Some of the people involved were not strangers. They were relatives. They were beneficiaries of kindness. Abu Bakr, who had been financially supporting one such relative, felt understandably wounded. His instinct was human: Why should I continue helping someone who harmed my family’s honor? It was then that the Qur’an asked a question that cuts straight through moral defensiveness: Do you not wish that God should forgive you?

The instruction was not naïve. It did not deny the pain. It redirected the heart. “Forgiveness here,” he explained, “was not weakness. It was moral elevation.”

What struck me was how the inner posture needed to be separated from external consequence. Abu Bakr was not told to deny wrongdoing. He was asked to rise above it and to keep his own soul aligned with mercy.

He then said something that quietly shifted how I see relationships. “Never deal with people according to their standards,” he said. “Deal with them according to yours.”

That sentence stuck with me. If I lower my standard every time someone else behaves poorly, then my morality becomes reactive. But if I hold my standard steady, overlooking where ignorance exists, forgiving where remorse appears, I remain anchored.

He warned me about something subtle but dangerous. “When you focus obsessively on the other person’s behavior, you start wanting control. And control is not available to you. That’s where frustration is born.”

I recognized myself immediately. The anger, the irritability, and the inner arguments were not coming from the act itself. They were coming from my insistence on a particular outcome: They must understand. They must change. They must behave differently. But that insistence was never my responsibility to begin with.

“My task,” he said gently, “is not to force reform. My task is to respond in the way that brings me closer to God.”

That reframed forgiveness not as a favor to the other person, but as fidelity to my own test. Overlooking becomes a way of refusing to poison my inner world. Forgiveness becomes a way of aligning my heart with the mercy I hope to receive.

By the end of the conversation, I realized that forgiveness is not a dramatic act. It is quiet inner labor. It is choosing—again and again—not to let someone else’s mistake decide who I become. And perhaps that is why the Qur’an asks the question the way it does. Do you not wish to be forgiven?

Because, in the end, forgiveness is not about them. It is about the kind of heart I am carrying forward.

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