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Leaving Justice to God, Choosing Mercy for Ourselves

Leaving Justice to God, Choosing Mercy for Ourselves

 

 

 

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I said it almost instinctively, without thinking too much: “Don’t you think that for cruel and oppressive people, we should at least wish a bad end?”

He didn’t react with shock or approval. He paused. Then he said, quietly, “Be careful what you allow to settle in your heart.”

He began by grounding the conversation in a conviction rather than an emotion. “If you truly believe,” he said, “that this world will ultimately be concluded with justice, then you don’t need to carry the burden of delivering that justice yourself.”

He reminded me that faith, at its core, entails trust: trust that no injustice goes unnoticed and that no oppressed person is forgotten. Every account will be settled fully—not partially, not symbolically, but completely. “When justice is certain,” he said, “hatred becomes unnecessary.”

Then he asked me a question that unsettled me. “Why,” he asked, “would you want someone to be deprived of the opportunity to realize their wrongdoing and ask for forgiveness?”

I hadn’t thought of it that way.

He wasn’t defending injustice. He was questioning my inner posture toward the oppressor. “That desire,” he said, “that someone should meet a terrible end without any chance of repentance—that desire does something to you.”

He brought the conversation inward. “Let me be honest with you,” he said. “If I start asking God for pure justice for myself, I don’t know how many things I would be held accountable for.”

That sentence landed hard. “I can only ask for mercy,” he continued. “Because I know my own shortcomings.”

And then he looked at me. “If you need mercy for yourself,” he said, “how easily do you deny it to others?”

I realized something uncomfortable. My anger felt principled. My resentment felt justified. But my heart was slowly hardening.

He explained that this is how moral corrosion often begins—not through obvious cruelty, but through righteous certainty. “We become convinced,” he said, “that we are standing on the side of the truth, and therefore our hearts are allowed to be unforgiving.” That, he warned, is dangerous ground.

He spoke about how easily people become trapped in narratives—propaganda, selective stories, emotionally charged framings that flatten entire groups into villains. “History is full of nations,” he said, “who convinced themselves that they were purely right and the other purely evil.” Once empathy disappears, everything becomes permissible. “That doesn’t mean everyone is innocent,” he said. “It means humans are more complex than slogans.”

He urged me to distinguish between accountability and annihilation. Wanting someone to be held accountable is moral. Wanting someone to be destroyed inwardly or eternally is something else.

“Justice,” he said, “is God’s domain. The state of your heart is yours.”

He gave a simple example: Two people suffer injustice. One says, “I leave this to God. I pray for guidance—for myself and even for the one who wronged me.” The other says, “I want to see him ruined.” Externally, both may look equally wounded. Internally, only one remains free.

He spoke about empathy—not as weakness, but as clarity. “Empathy,” he said, “does not excuse wrongdoing. It simply refuses to dehumanize.” It recognizes that people can be swept by fear, power, ideology, or group pressure. Entire societies have committed horrors while believing they were righteous. “Try to understand,” he said, “without justifying.”

Then he said something that reframed everything. “Praying for mercy for all creation,” he said, “is not about them. It’s about protecting yourself.” Protecting the heart from hatred. Protecting faith from arrogance. Protecting morality from becoming selective.

I noticed that my resistance had softened. I wasn’t being asked to forget injustice. I wasn’t being asked to silence pain. I was being asked to trust God more—and my own ego less.

He concluded gently. “Ask for justice when justice is yours to deliver,” he said. “But when it isn’t, ask for mercy—because you live by it too.”

And as I sat with his words, I realized something both sobering and freeing. I do not need to wish destruction on anyone to stand with the truth. I do not need to hate to oppose injustice. I do not need to abandon mercy to honor justice. Because justice will come—whether I demand it or not.

What remains my responsibility is the state of my heart while I wait.

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“At Least My Hands Are Clean.”

At Least My Hands Are Clean

 

 

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We were driving through the city when he lowered the window and casually tossed a wrapper onto the road. It was a small movement—almost automatic. I didn’t react immediately. I had seen this scene too many times to be startled by it. After a few seconds, I asked gently, “Would you do the same if this were the floor of your living room?”

He looked at me, slightly confused. “Of course not,” came the quick reply. “This is the road.”

“And whose home is this road?” I asked. There was a pause. The question wasn’t expected. “This is our home too,” I added. “The streets, the corners, the spaces between buildings—this is where our lives unfold. Just as we don’t like filth inside our houses, these streets also deserve that same respect.”

He sighed and said what I had heard countless times before, “But what difference does it make if I don’t throw it? Look around—everything is already dirty. One wrapper from me won’t change anything.”

I nodded slowly. “That’s exactly the sentence that has built this mess—one wrapper won’t change anything. But have you ever thought of it this way: if you don’t throw it, one person’s share of this filth disappears?”

He remained silent. “My not throwing it may not clean the entire city,” I continued, “but it will ensure that I didn’t contribute to this dirt. And sometimes, that is where real change begins.”

We drove past a drain overflowing with garbage—plastic bags, cups, leftover food. A stray cat stood at the edge, hesitating to cross. I pointed toward it. “Every piece of trash here came from someone who thought their single act didn’t matter,” I said. “But nothing here arrived alone.”

He shifted uncomfortably. “In our homes,” I went on, “we teach children not to litter. We scold them if they drop things on the floor. We say, ‘This is our house—keep it clean.’ But the moment they step outside, we silently teach them a different lesson: This place doesn’t belong to us.”

He finally said, “So you think my stopping will really make a difference?”

“Yes,” I said. “Not immediately. Not dramatically. But meaningfully.”

I shared a small story. Once, in another city, I had seen an elderly man walking with a stick. Every few steps, he would stop, bend down with effort, and pick up a bottle or wrapper from the roadside. Someone once asked him why he bothered when others kept throwing trash right back. His answer was simple, “I am not responsible for the city. I am responsible for myself.”

That sentence had stayed with me. “When you decide not to throw trash,” I told him, “you are making one powerful declaration: I will not be part of the problem. And that is not a small thing.”

He looked out of the window again, as if seeing the streets differently now. “Imagine,” I continued, “if this thought entered our homes, our schools, our offices—‘I will not contribute to the dirt.’ Not just physical dirt, but moral dirt, social dirt, relational dirt.”

The other person raised an eyebrow. “What do you mean?”

“In families,” I explained, “when we choose not to add to arguments, when we refuse to spread bitterness, we are keeping our inner environment clean. In society, when we refuse to lie, cheat, or exploit, we are keeping the collective space clean. The same rule applies everywhere: My contribution matters—even if I stand alone.”

He grew thoughtful. “I never saw it that way,” came the quiet reply. “If we all waited for the entire nation to change first,” I said, “nothing would ever change. But when an individual says, ‘My hands will remain clean, regardless of what others do,’ that individual becomes a silent force.”

I paused and added softly, “And God does not ask us to clean the whole world. He asks us to purify our own intent and our own actions.”

He slowly picked up another wrapper from inside the car and held it rather than throwing it away. “Maybe,” the voice said, almost to itself, “my not throwing it won’t clean the city… but at least this dirt won’t be because of me.”

I smiled. “And that is enough to begin.”

As we drove on, nothing about the city had changed. The streets were still dusty. The drains were still clogged. But something small had shifted inside the car—a quiet decision had been made. And I knew: when enough people start saying, ‘My contribution will be clean, not filthy,’ the outside world, sooner or later, is forced to follow the inside.

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