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“This Too Shall Pass”

"This Too Shall Pass"

 

 

 

 

یہ مضمون اردو میں پڑھیں

I brought the question to him on a day when things felt particularly heavy. Not because anything catastrophic had happened, but because life had become difficult enough that I could not see beyond it, the way a single loud sound can drown out everything else in a room.

He listened quietly, as he always did, letting me finish before he spoke. Then he smiled. “Have you heard the story about Alexander the Great?”

I shook my head.

“According to a famous story, Alexander once asked one of his advisors for a piece of wisdom that would help him in both times of happiness and times of sorrow.”

“What kind of wisdom?”

“Something that would comfort him during hardship and keep him grounded in success.”

“And what did the advisor tell him?”

He paused, the way he did when he wanted a line to land with full weight. Then he replied, “This too shall pass.”

For a moment, I was disappointed. It sounded too simple. Surely the great conqueror of the world deserved something more profound than that, some elaborate secret rather than a phrase you might find stitched on a cushion.

He must have sensed my reaction, because he laughed. “You don’t seem impressed.”

“Honestly,” I admitted, “it sounds obvious.”

“It is obvious,” he replied. “The problem is that we rarely live as though it is true.”

I thought about that for a moment. “What do you mean?”

“When we are suffering, we unconsciously act as if the suffering is permanent.”

That resonated with me immediately because whenever I am anxious, disappointed, embarrassed, or hurt, the feeling never announces itself as temporary. It feels endless, as though the walls of the moment extend infinitely in every direction.

He continued. “Think about the last major difficulty you faced.” I immediately thought of several: a professional setback that had felt like the end of something, a misunderstanding in a relationship that had cost me sleep, and a long period of uncertainty when nothing seemed to move forward. At the time, each had felt overwhelming, the kind of thing that reorganizes your whole sense of what the future holds.

“Do those things affect you today in the same way?” he asked.

“No.”

“Why not?”

“Because time passed.”

He smiled. “Exactly.” Then he leaned back and said something I found genuinely interesting. “The strange thing is that people usually understand this lesson intellectually, but they struggle to remember it emotionally.”

I asked him to explain. “When you’re anxious, your mind acts as if this moment will last forever,” he said. “When you’re sad, it feels permanent. When you’re worried, it feels permanent. When you’re embarrassed, it feels permanent. But none of those things are permanent.”

I remembered something from years ago. I had once been deeply upset over a professional issue, the kind that occupies every idle minute. For weeks, it dominated my thoughts. I replayed conversations I had already gone over a dozen times. I imagined consequences that never arrived. I lost sleep over decisions that, in hindsight, mattered far less than they seemed to at three in the morning. And yet years later, I could barely remember the details, only the vague shape of having once been very upset about something at that job.

When I told him this, he laughed. “Exactly. Most of the things that dominate our minds today will barely occupy them a few years from now.”

Then he surprised me. “You know, the phrase is just as important in success.”

I had never thought about that. “I understand why it helps in hardship,” I said. “But why in success?”

“Because success creates a different illusion.”

“What illusion?”

“The illusion that good things will stay forever.”

I sat quietly because that was true too. When life is going well, we quietly begin to assume it will continue indefinitely: the job, the health, the relationships, the recognition, the comfort, the stability. Without ever deciding to, we begin treating temporary gifts as permanent possessions, as if a person might forget that a rented house is not actually theirs to keep.

He nodded as if he knew exactly what I was thinking. “That is why the phrase is so powerful. It comforts you in difficulty and humbles you in success.”

I remembered an elderly man I once knew who had suffered enormous financial losses. At the time, he believed his life had been ruined and that everything he had built was gone for good. Years later, when speaking about that same period, he described it very differently. “Looking back,” he told me, “that was one of the best things that ever happened to me.” When I asked why, he smiled and said simply, “It forced me to become a different person.”

I shared the story with him. He nodded. “You see? At the time, he could only see the pain. Later, he could see the growth.” Then he said something I found myself returning to long after the conversation ended. “The present moment is a terrible place to judge the entire story.”

I laughed. “That sounds true.”

“When you’re standing inside a chapter, you can’t see the whole book.”

We sat in silence for a moment. Then I asked, “If everything goes as planned, doesn’t that make life less meaningful?”

He shook his head immediately. “No. It makes life more meaningful.”

“How?”

He pointed toward the window. “Imagine a sunset.”

“Okay.”

“Would it be as beautiful if it lasted forever?”

I thought about it. Probably not. A sky that stayed gold and pink all day, every day, would eventually become wallpaper, something the eye no longer registered.

“The fact that it ends is part of what makes it precious,” he continued. “A child is small for only a few years. A conversation happens only once, exactly this way, with exactly these people, never to be repeated in quite the same form. A season comes and goes. The very fact that these things pass is what gives them much of their value.”

I had never considered impermanence from that angle before. We usually treat permanence as the thing worth wanting, the goal underlying most of our other goals. Yet so much of what we cherish draws its beauty from being temporary in the first place.

“Then maybe,” I said, “the problem is not that things pass.”

“The problem is that we keep expecting them not to.” He smiled. “I think that’s a big part of it.”

As the conversation drew to a close, I asked him one final question. “What should I do when I’m overwhelmed?”

He paused for a moment. “Ask yourself a simple question.”

“What question?”

“Will this feel as important a year from now?”

I laughed. “That would ease many of my worries.”

“Probably.”

“And if it still matters a year from now?”

“Then deal with it, but remember that even this chapter is not the whole story.”

As I left that day, I kept hearing those words in my mind. “This too shall pass.” Not as an invitation to indifference. Not as an excuse to avoid responsibility. Not as a reason to care less. But as a reminder to keep perspective.

The difficult moments will pass. The joyful moments will pass. The praise will pass. The criticism will pass. The success will pass. The failure will pass. Perhaps wisdom lies in learning to walk through both triumph and trial with the same quiet awareness: “This too shall pass.”

Points for Reflection

  • Name the last thing that felt permanent. Recall a difficulty from a few years ago that once felt unbearable. Notice how much of its weight remains today, and what that tells you about the one you’re carrying now.
  • Ask the one-year question. For whatever is overwhelming you right now, ask honestly: will this feel exactly this important a year from now? Let the answer change how much of today you give to it.
  • Check what you’re treating as permanent. Where in your life, right now, during a season that is going well, are you quietly assuming the good will simply continue? What would it mean to hold it a little more loosely?
  • Remember the chapter is not the book. The next time a single moment feels like it defines everything, ask what you might be unable to see simply because you are standing inside it rather than looking back at it.
  • Let impermanence add rather than subtract. Choose one thing you love precisely because it does not last, a season, a stage of a child’s life, an ordinary evening, and let that temporariness deepen your attention to it rather than your anxiety about losing it.

 

 

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Where Trust Lives

Where Trust Lives

 

 

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I once shared a frustration with him that I suspect many people carry quietly. “It feels like nothing is in my control,” I said. I began listing what was bothering me: people making decisions I disagreed with, family members behaving differently than I wished, friends not responding as I expected, situations unfolding contrary to my plans, the economy, the news, the future. By the time I finished, I felt even more overwhelmed than when I had started, as though naming the list had only made it heavier.

He listened patiently, then asked a simple question. “Of all the things you mentioned, how many are actually under your direct control?”

The answer was uncomfortable. Very few. He walked me through a couple of them to make the point concrete. The news, for instance. I did not control what happened in the world, only whether I chose to watch it at midnight and let it follow me into sleep. Even a family member’s behavior, the thing that felt most personal and urgent, was not something I could reach into and adjust. I could only control how I responded, what I said, and what I did next. Item by item, the list I had recited so easily began to look different. Almost none of it belonged to me.

That question has followed me since, because it revealed something I had never fully appreciated. Many of us spend enormous emotional energy trying to manage things outside our control. We worry about them. We obsess over them. We argue about them. We lose sleep over them. Yet despite all that effort, they remain stubbornly beyond our reach.

He explained that this is one of the most common struggles he encounters when speaking with people. On the surface, the complaints often sound different, but their root is usually the same. My spouse won’t change. My children don’t listen. My colleagues don’t understand. My family doesn’t support me. My circumstances aren’t improving. The words differ, but the pain beneath is always the same: something is out of control, and it hurts to admit it.

The surprising part came next. “Your self is under your control,” he said, “and so are your relationships.”

I paused. Relationships? I had expected him to say that only my thoughts and actions were under my control, the usual answer, the one I already half knew. But relationships? He explained what he meant. We cannot control other people, but we can invest in our relationships with them, and that investment often creates something far more powerful than control. Influence.

Most people secretly want influence, but they pursue control instead, and control almost always damages the very relationships in which influence grows.

I thought of a father I once knew who desperately wanted his son to follow a particular path in life, the one he himself had never been able to walk. He pushed hard: strict rules about how the boy spent his evenings, constant comparisons to other children, and long lectures whenever the son showed interest in anything else. The harder the father pushed, the more resistance grew. Arguments increased. Distance grew. Conversations that used to happen easily over dinner became short and guarded. The father worked as hard as he could, yet he lost influence with every passing month instead of gaining it.

Now imagine a different approach. The parent continues to guide, advise, and set boundaries where appropriate. But also invests deeply in the relationship itself: listening, understanding, showing respect, building trust, and creating emotional safety. Years later, when the child faces a difficult decision, whose voice is most likely to matter? The voice of the person who controlled them, or the voice of the person they trust? Influence grows where trust exists. Control rarely produces trust.

This is why he emphasized something many people find difficult. Learn to live with disagreement.

At first, that may sound almost passive. Shouldn’t we try to convince people? Shouldn’t we correct them? Shouldn’t we argue for what we believe is right? Sometimes, yes. But the problem isn’t disagreement itself. It is the inability to tolerate it.

Many relationships break down not because people disagree, but because one or both parties conclude that disagreement makes the relationship unsafe. A husband and wife disagree on how to raise their children, and instead of treating it as one more thing two people are working through together, they treat it as evidence that something is wrong between them. Friends disagree politically, and the friendship quietly shrinks around the topic until there is less and less room to talk at all. Siblings disagree about how to care for an aging parent, and years of closeness give way to tension neither of them quite knows how to name. In each case, the disagreement was survivable. What was not survivable was the fear beneath it, the sense that being different from someone meant losing them.

Healthy relationships require a different skill: the ability to say, “I disagree with you, but I still value you.” That sentence may be one of the most important foundations of mature relationships.

I remember a friend who kept an unusually close relationship with his father despite real differences between them, the kind that in most families would have hardened into permanent distance. One day I asked him how they managed it. He smiled. “We stopped trying to win.” I asked what he meant. “We realized that preserving the relationship mattered more to both of us than winning every argument.” That did not mean they abandoned their convictions or pretended to agree when they didn’t. It meant they learned to place the relationship above the need to dominate the conversation, so that being right and being close no longer competed with each other.

That conversation reminded me of something he emphasized repeatedly. Invest in relationships. Not occasionally, not when convenient, but regularly and intentionally.

The word investment is important because investments rarely yield immediate returns. You invest time. You invest attention. You invest patience. You invest understanding, sometimes for years, and it can feel as if nothing is happening at all. Then one day a crisis comes, a conflict emerges, a difficult conversation becomes necessary, and suddenly the trust you built over years is available exactly when you need it.

Trust functions like a savings account. Small deposits accumulate over time: listening when you could have interrupted, being honest when dishonesty would have been easier, keeping commitments, admitting mistakes, showing reliability, and demonstrating goodwill. Each of these is a deposit, made quietly and often without any visible return. I think of the elderly couples who seem able to weather almost anything together, and how their steadiness is rarely the result of a single dramatic act of love. It is usually the result of thousands of small deposits made over decades, most of them too ordinary to remember individually, all of them adding up to a kind of trust that can absorb a real crisis without breaking. Eventually, those deposits become influence.

He made another important point. Not only should we build trust in others, but we should also build trustworthiness within ourselves. That distinction matters. Many people want to be trusted, yet fewer focus on becoming trustworthy. Trustworthiness is built through consistency. Do your actions match your words? Do you keep your promises? Do you act with integrity when no one is watching? Can people rely on you? These questions determine influence far more than intelligence, authority, or charisma ever could.

I once worked with someone who had no formal leadership position, title, or special authority. Yet everyone, including those well above him in rank, quietly sought his opinion before making difficult decisions. Why? Because over the years he had developed a reputation for fairness, honesty, and consistency. He said the same thing to your face as he did behind your back. He admitted when he was wrong just as readily as he pointed out when others were. People trusted him, and that trust became a kind of authority no title could have given him.

This is one of life’s great paradoxes. The more desperately we try to control people, the less influence we often wield. The more we focus on building trust and relationships, the greater our influence tends to be.

Many people believe their influence grows when they become louder, more forceful, more persuasive, and more argumentative. Yet influence often grows through quieter qualities: patience, reliability, empathy, consistency, humility, and trust. This does not mean becoming passive. It does not mean abandoning principles or accepting everything without question. It simply means recognizing where genuine influence comes from. Not coercion. Connection.

As I reflected on our conversation, I realized something uncomfortable. Much of my frustration stemmed from investing heavily in things I could not control while neglecting those I could. I worried about changing people, but spent less time strengthening relationships. I worried about gaining influence, but spent less time becoming trustworthy. I worried about being understood, but spent less time understanding others.

Perhaps that is why his advice felt so practical. If you want greater influence, invest in relationships. If you want stronger relationships, build trust. If you want trust, become trustworthy. None of this guarantees that people will agree with you, that others will change, or that outcomes will be perfect. But it does place your energy where it can make a difference.

And perhaps that is one of the wisest shifts a person can make. Stop trying to control people. Start investing in relationships. Because in the end, influence grows where trust lives.

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The Trap of Waiting for Certainty

The Trap of Waiting for Certainty

 

 

 

 

 

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“I keep going in circles,” I told him.

He waited.

“I can’t seem to make a decision with peace. Every time I think I’ve arrived at an answer, another thought appears.”

“What kind of thought?” He asked.

“The usual kind. What if this is wrong? What if I missed something? What if I regret it later? What if this affects other people in ways I can’t foresee?”

“And then?”

“And then I start over.”

I revisited the same options, reanalyzed the same facts, and reconsidered the same fears. Sometimes I spent so much time evaluating a decision that I lost sight of what I was trying to decide in the first place. I wasn’t moving forward. I was simply circling the same territory, hoping that one more round of thinking would finally produce certainty.

For a few moments, he said nothing. Then he asked, “What are you hoping to find at the end of all that thinking?”

“The right answer.”

He smiled slightly and said, “The right answer, or certainty?”

I wanted to answer immediately. Instead, I found myself hesitating. Because the more I thought about it, the more I realized he had touched something important. I wasn’t merely trying to make a good decision. I was trying to find a decision that came with guarantees. No regret. No loss. No unintended consequences. No possibility of discovering later that I should have chosen differently. In other words, I wanted something life had never promised.

He seemed to notice where my thoughts had gone. “You are expecting something from decisions that decisions were never meant to provide.” He said.

“What?”

“Certainty.”

I found myself thinking about several decisions I had delayed over the years. One involved changing direction in a professional project. For months, I moved between different options, filling notebooks with considerations, advantages, risks, and contingency plans. Every time I reached a conclusion, I found a new possibility that needed to be examined. At first, I called it thoroughness. Looking back, it was mostly fear. Not fear of making a bad decision. Fear of making a human one. Because a human decision always contains uncertainty.

“No human decision can be absolute,” he said.

The statement sounded obvious. Yet emotionally, I had never accepted it. Part of me still believed that if I thought long enough, gathered enough information, and consulted enough people, I would eventually arrive at a perfect choice. A choice so clearly correct that all doubt would disappear. But every important decision I had ever faced seemed to resist that fantasy.

He leaned back and said something I would return to many times afterward. “Decisions are not about certainty.” He said, “They are about sincerity, humility, and movement.”

The word that stayed with me was movement. Because anxiety rarely moves. It analyzes. It rehearses. It predicts. It revisits. It stands at the crossroads, imagining every possible road while refusing to walk any of them.

I remembered a friend who once spent nearly a year deciding whether to relocate for an opportunity that genuinely excited him. Every few weeks he discovered a new concern. A new variable. A new risk. Eventually, someone asked him a simple question: “If every concern disappeared, would you move tomorrow?” After a long silence, he admitted that another concern would probably replace the ones that had already been resolved. The problem was not a lack of information. The problem was expecting certainty to arrive eventually. I understood him because I had often done the same thing.

“What kinds of decisions trouble you most?” he asked.

“The ones that affect other people.”

He nodded.

“Tell me more.”

I thought about my answer. “Family decisions. Decisions that affect parents, children, or people who depend on me. Those are the hardest.”

“Because you don’t want to harm them.”

“Exactly.”

“What do you do when faced with those decisions?”

“I try to think through every possible outcome.”

“And then?”

“I try to think through the outcomes of those outcomes.”

He laughed quietly and said, “So you attempt to see the future.”

I smiled. “When you put it that way, it sounds impossible.”

“Because it is.”

There was no criticism in his voice. Only clarity. He continued. “When decisions affect other people, include them.”

That sounded simpler than I expected. Seeing my expression, he elaborated. “When decisions affect others, their perspectives matter. Not because they possess certainty, but because they see things you do not.”

That reminded me of a conversation I had once had with a family member while wrestling with an important decision. I had become so focused on what could go wrong that I completely overlooked a potential benefit that seemed obvious to her. It wasn’t that she was wiser than I was. She was simply standing in a different place and therefore seeing a different part of the landscape.

Perhaps that is why consultation matters. Not because it produces certainty. But because it expands vision. Then he said something else. “We do not possess God’s vision.”

The statement immediately softened something in me. So much anxiety comes from unconsciously expecting ourselves to see everything. Every consequence. Every possibility. Every future outcome. We want complete visibility before moving forward. Yet no human being has ever possessed that kind of vision.

Wisdom is not knowing everything. Wisdom begins by accepting that we cannot. I admitted something that had often frustrated me. “Sometimes people don’t really tell me what they think.”

“What do you mean?”

“They leave the decision entirely to me.”

He smiled. “Have you told them that?”

The question surprised me. “No.”

“Why not?”

I wasn’t sure. Perhaps I had assumed their silence meant they had nothing to contribute. But he pointed out something I had never considered before. People often hesitate for reasons hidden from us. They may fear being blamed if things go badly. They may fear conflict. They may worry about disappointing someone. Sometimes they remain vague not because they don’t care, but because they are afraid. That shifted the entire conversation. The issue was no longer simply making the right decision. It was creating enough trust for honest dialogue.

A few moments later, he said something I desperately needed to hear. “You will make mistakes.” There was no hesitation in his voice. Not you might. You will.

At first, I resisted the idea. I realized how much of my decision paralysis rested on the hope that careful thinking could somehow exempt me from mistakes. Yet when I looked back over my life, many of the lessons I valued most came from decisions that didn’t unfold according to plan. A project I was certain would succeed ended in disappointment. At the time, I considered it a failure. Yet the experience exposed weaknesses in my approach that success would have hidden. Another decision led to a difficult season I never would have chosen. Yet that season taught patience, resilience, and humility in ways comfort never could. Growth and perfection rarely seemed to travel together.

He continued. “Some mistakes can be corrected.”

That brought relief.

“And some cannot.”

That brought humility.

“But even those can become teachers if you are willing to learn.”

I sat quietly. The longer I reflected on it, the more I saw how often I treated life as though it were a single examination where one incorrect answer ruined everything. But life is not a single test. It is a long journey. Most decisions do not permanently close the story. They become part of the story.

Eventually our discussion returned to the deeper source of paralysis. “The thought that traps people is usually simple,” he said.

“What thought?”

“What if something goes wrong?”

I nodded immediately. That thought had accompanied countless decisions.

“The question appears responsible,” he said. “But repeated endlessly, it becomes a prison.”

I understood exactly what he meant. At some point, caution stops serving wisdom. It starts serving fear. The mind stops evaluating possibilities and begins worshipping safety. Then he said something that reminded me of our earlier conversations about anxiety. “Do not become the servant of your thoughts.”

I sat with that for a while. Because it described what often happened during difficult decisions. A fearful thought appeared. Then another. Then another. Soon I stopped evaluating them. I was obeying them. He described it as allowing thoughts to go out of bounds.

I liked the image immediately. Most anxious thinking begins with something legitimate. A reasonable concern. A genuine possibility. But then the mind keeps expanding it beyond proportion. A concern becomes a scenario. The scenario becomes a prediction. The prediction becomes an emotional certainty. And before long, we react to imagined futures rather than present realities.

“So what should I do when that happens?” I asked.

He thought for a moment. Then he said, “Ask yourself a simple question.”

“What question?”

“Is this thought helping me decide, or is it helping me avoid discomfort?”

I found myself returning to that question often. Because many thoughts disguise themselves as wisdom. In reality, they are attempts to escape uncertainty. The more honest I became with myself, the more often I recognized the pattern. I wasn’t always seeking clarity. Often, I was seeking emotional immunity. I wanted a decision that would protect me from regret, criticism, uncertainty, and pain. But no such decision exists.

Some months later, I finally made a choice I had postponed for a very long time. Not because every question was answered. Not because certainty arrived. But because I accepted that certainty was never coming. I had reflected carefully. I had sought advice. I had listened honestly. I had prayed, considered the available information, and examined my motives as best I could. And then I moved.

That was the most important part. I moved. Was the decision perfect?

No.

Did everything unfold exactly as I expected?

Of course not. Some parts went better than anticipated. Others brought challenges I had never foreseen. But something surprising happened. I survived the uncertainty. And more importantly, I learned from it.

That was the moment I finally understood what he had been trying to show me all along. A decision is not the end of the journey. It is part of the journey.

Many of us suffer because we treat every choice as though it must permanently secure the future. We want today’s decision to guarantee tomorrow’s outcome. But life is more fluid than that. You learn. You adjust. You correct. You grow.

Looking back, the greatest gift he gave me was not a formula for making flawless decisions. It was freedom from the illusion that flawless decisions exist. Once that illusion begins to fade, something else becomes possible. You consult honestly. You reflect carefully. You remain open to correction. And then you move forward, not because certainty has finally arrived, but because you have accepted that learning matters more than certainty ever could.

And perhaps real maturity begins there: not when a person finds the perfect decision, but when a person stops demanding guarantees from life and becomes willing to walk forward with humility, sincerity, and the courage to learn from whatever comes next.

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Not Punishment—A Call to Return

Not Punishment — A Call to Return

 

 

 

 

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I asked the question with a heaviness I could not conceal: “Why is this happening to me?” I said. “What have I done to deserve it?”

He allowed the question to remain between us for a few moments, as though the assumption behind it needed to be examined before the event itself could be understood.

Then he asked quietly, “What makes you think that, in this life, people receive only what they deserve?”

I looked at him, surprised.

“Isn’t that how it works?”

“Not entirely,” he replied. “Some consequences in this life do arise from our own choices. But this world is not the place where every person receives the full reward or punishment they deserve. If it were, every good deed would receive its complete reward here, every wrongdoing would meet its full consequence here, and every moral account would be settled before death. But that is clearly not how this life has been arranged. The righteous may suffer, wrongdoers may prosper for a time, and children may experience hardships they did nothing to bring upon themselves. Final recompense belongs elsewhere.”

I sat quietly with that. Until then, I had not really questioned the assumption beneath my words. Something painful had happened, so I had instinctively looked backward, searching for the offense that might explain it.

He continued, “Before you conclude that a hardship is a punishment, ask whether you actually know why it has come. It may be a trial. It may be the natural consequence of a choice. It may interrupt a direction that would otherwise have harmed you. It may expose something you have been refusing to see.”

He paused before adding, “Or its full meaning may simply be something God has not made known to us.”

That possibility unsettled me. I had been so eager to explain the event that I had never stopped to ask whether I possessed enough knowledge to explain it at all. Something painful enters our lives, and the mind immediately begins searching for a reason. A plan fails. A relationship becomes strained. A decision produces an unwelcome consequence. Something we relied upon is suddenly taken away. Almost instinctively, we ask whether God is displeased with us, whether we are being punished, whether the hardship is the price of some mistake. There was something final about the way I had been thinking.

If this was punishment, then the verdict had already been delivered. The past had been judged, the consequence had arrived, and all that remained was to endure it under the weight of guilt.

He was asking me to leave room for another possibility. “Even when a difficulty follows something you have done,” he said, “why assume that its only purpose is to make you suffer?”

I did not answer.

“A consequence can hurt and still contain mercy. It may show you what comfort had allowed you to ignore. It may stop you from continuing in a direction that was slowly taking you farther away. It may wake you while there is still time to turn.”

I began to see the distinction. Punishment, as I had imagined it, looked only backward: You did this. Now you must pay. A reminder could also look backward, but only in order to make a different future possible: This is where you have been heading. Is this still where you want to go? That did not make the pain unreal. It did not mean that every difficulty could be neatly interpreted. But it changed the posture with which I stood before it.

He gave me an example. “Imagine a child walking toward a dangerous road,” he said. “The parent calls out, but the child continues. The parent raises his voice, runs toward him, and pulls him back sharply. The child may be startled. He may even experience the intervention as unpleasant. But what is the parent trying to do?”

“Protect him.”

“Exactly. The discomfort is not the purpose. The return is.”

It made sense. I began to wonder how often I had judged an interruption only by how it felt. If it disturbed me, I called it harmful. If it frustrated my plans, I assumed something had gone wrong. Yet perhaps some interruptions had stopped me from continuing in directions whose consequences I had not fully understood.

He was careful, however, not to let me turn that thought into another formula. “Do not conclude that every hardship means you have sinned,” he said. “And do not assume that every setback is a direct warning from God. Prophets were tested. Good people suffer. Some pain comes through the wrongdoing of others. Some comes through the ordinary conditions of life.”

“Then how am I supposed to interpret it?” I asked.

“With humility.”

I waited.

“You may not know why it happened. But you can still ask what it calls you to do now.”

That felt both more modest and more demanding. It was easier to give the event a label. If I called it a punishment, I could collapse into guilt. If I called it meaningless, I could collapse into resentment. But if I asked what response was now required of me, I had to become attentive. Perhaps I needed patience. Perhaps I needed to repair something I had damaged. Perhaps I needed to abandon a habit I had been defending. Perhaps I needed courage to endure something that was not of my making. Perhaps I needed to seek help, set a boundary, apologize, forgive, or simply accept what could no longer be changed. The event did not always tell me why it had happened. But it could still become a moment in which I examined where I stood and where I was heading.

He used an Arabic word. “Tanbīh,” he said.

“A warning?” I asked.

“A warning, yes. But also an alert. Something that wakes your attention.”

I thought about moments in my own life when events had forced me to see what ordinary comfort had concealed. There had been habits I knew were unhealthy but continued because their cost had not yet become visible. There were relationships I neglected because I assumed they would always remain. There were compromises I justified because nothing immediately seemed to follow from them. Then, at some point, something interrupted the pattern. At the time, I experienced mainly the discomfort. Looking back, I could sometimes see that the interruption had made honesty possible.

Not every painful event yielded such a clear lesson. Some remained difficult to understand. But even then, I began to see the value of refusing to waste the moment.

“If a consequence awakens you,” he said, “then the door has not closed.”

The sentence carried more hope than I expected. Even when I had contributed to my own difficulty, the story did not have to end with the mistake. There was still room to acknowledge, repair, and return. The consequence did not have to become the final definition of my life.

He then spoke of tawbah.

I had often understood repentance mainly as asking forgiveness after doing something wrong. He described it more fully.

“Tawbah means return,” he said. “You recognize that you have moved away from where you should be, and you turn back.”

There was movement in that understanding. Repentance was not remaining permanently before the past in shame. It was allowing what I had seen about the past to change the direction of the future.

“Then remorse has a purpose?” I asked.

“Yes. It should soften you, not imprison you. It should help you return, not convince you that return is no longer possible.”

I sat quietly with that.

Perhaps this was the difference between remorse that heals and guilt that destroys. One says, Something needs to change. The other says, You are beyond change. The first can become movement. The second becomes paralysis.

After a while, I asked the question that still troubled me: “But why must some reminders be so painful? Why can’t we learn through something gentler?”

“Sometimes we do,” he said. “But gentle reminders are easy to postpone.”

I knew immediately what he meant. There were truths I had understood for years without allowing them to alter my conduct. I had heard advice, felt unease, noticed warning signs, and still continued. Knowledge can remain abstract for a very long time. Sometimes a consequence makes what was abstract suddenly personal.

He was not glorifying suffering. He was not saying that pain was desirable or that we should passively accept every harmful situation. He was simply refusing to let pain become empty when it could become instructive. “The difficulty itself may not be good,” he said, “but something good may still be asked of you within it.”

That sentence gave me a more careful way to think. I did not need to call the hardship a blessing while I was still bleeding from it. I did not need to pretend that loss was pleasant or injustice acceptable. But neither did I have to assume that suffering had left me with nothing except suffering. There could still be a response.

He suggested a question: “When something difficult happens, do not ask only, ‘Why is this happening to me?’ Ask also, ‘What is being asked of me now?’”

The first question searched for an explanation I might never receive. The second brought me back to a responsibility I could still fulfill. It shifted my attention from speculation about the hidden purpose of the event toward the moral possibilities that remained within the present moment.

I began trying to practice that. When a mistake produced an embarrassing consequence, I asked what needed to be repaired. When a plan failed, I asked whether the moment required perseverance, reconsideration, or acceptance. When I found myself repeatedly disturbed by the same pattern, I asked whether I had been refusing to notice something about myself. The answers did not always come quickly. Sometimes I discovered that I had indeed drifted. At other times, I realized that the hardship was not the result of anything I had done, and that my task was simply to endure it without surrendering trust, dignity, or compassion. Either way, the question helped me engage with the moment instead of merely passing judgment upon it.

Before we parted, he returned to the words with which we had begun. “You asked what you had done to deserve this,” he said. “Perhaps that is not always the question.”

“What is the question, then?”

He looked at me gently and said, “Will this bring you nearer—or will you allow it to take you farther away?”

I understood then that he was not offering me a complete explanation for suffering. He was giving me a way to stand within it. I could not always know whether a difficulty was a consequence, a test, a warning, or part of a wisdom I could not yet see. But I could refuse to let uncertainty drive me into despair or distance from God.

Sometimes the pain may expose a path from which I need to return. Sometimes it may ask me to remain faithful on a path I should not abandon. And sometimes its meaning may remain hidden while the response it requires becomes clear.

Now, when hardship comes, I try not to rush toward the conclusion that I am being punished. I pause before passing judgment upon the event—or upon myself. Perhaps this is not a door being closed. Perhaps it is a moment in which another door has quietly opened: the door of reflection, correction, patience, and return.

The question is no longer only: Why has this happened to me? It is also: What response will bring me nearer to God now?

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The Boundary of Responsibility

The Boundary of Responsibility

 

 

 

 

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The conversation stayed with me long after we had parted. I understood, at least in principle, that my role was to influence rather than to control. There was relief in that realization. Yet another question kept returning to my mind. If I am not responsible for changing another person, then what am I responsible for? The next time we met, I asked him exactly that. “If their decisions are ultimately theirs,” I said, “then where does my responsibility end?”

He did not answer immediately. Instead, he asked, “When you speak to someone you care about, what do you believe your duty is?”

I began listing the obvious things. “To be honest.”

He nodded.

“To be kind.”

Another nod.

“To explain clearly.”

“Good.”

“To remain patient.”

Again he nodded. As I continued thinking, I realized something. Everything I had mentioned described my own actions. None of them described the other person’s response.

He seemed pleased that I had noticed. “Your responsibility,” he said quietly, “always lies within your own conduct.”

The simplicity of the statement concealed how easily I had forgotten it. “So whether they listen…”

“…is not yours.”

“Whether they agree…”

“…is not yours.”

“Whether they change…”

He smiled and said, “…is certainly not yours.”

I sat quietly, allowing the thought to settle. For years I had allowed my sense of responsibility to expand far beyond my own actions. Every time someone ignored good advice, I instinctively felt I had not explained it well enough. Every time they repeated the same mistake, I assumed I needed to become more persuasive. It never occurred to me that I had crossed a boundary.

He drew an imaginary line on the table with his finger. “On this side,” he said, “is everything entrusted to you.”

I waited.

“Your intention. Your sincerity. Your wisdom. Your words. Your patience. Your character.”

Then he moved his finger to the other side. “And here…,” He paused for a moment, and then added, “…begins another person’s freedom.”

The image stayed with me. It was such a simple boundary, yet I had crossed it countless times without realizing it.

He then shared something personal. “There was a time,” he said, “when I lost my temper with a close friend.”

That surprised me.

“I had spoken to him several times about a decision that was harming him. I explained my concerns carefully. I listened to his perspective. I prayed for him. Yet nothing changed.”

“What happened?”

“One day he repeated the same mistake, and I became angry.” He looked down for a moment before continuing. “I wasn’t angry because he had made another mistake.” He paused, and then said, “I was angry because I had quietly begun expecting that my words should produce change.”

I recognized the feeling immediately. Not the situation. The expectation. How many times had I done the same thing? I had mistaken sincere effort for guaranteed results. He looked at me and said something I have remembered ever since: “Your responsibility does not grow simply because another person’s resistance grows.”

That sentence exposed a habit I had never questioned. Whenever someone failed to respond, I assumed I had to do more. Explain again. Persuade again. Push a little harder. As though another person’s reluctance automatically increased my obligation.

But it doesn’t. My responsibility remains what it always was: to act with sincerity, wisdom and respect. Nothing less. But also nothing more.

“But isn’t that difficult?” I asked. “How do you care deeply without feeling responsible for the outcome?”

He smiled. “You keep caring.” I waited. I knew something more was coming. Then, he said, “You simply stop carrying what was never yours.”

There was an extraordinary freedom in that distinction. He wasn’t asking me to become detached. He wasn’t telling me to stop advising, encouraging, or supporting. He was asking me to stop measuring my faithfulness by another person’s response.

As I reflected on countless conversations from my own life, I realized how often I had evaluated myself by outcomes I could never control. If they listened, I felt successful. If they ignored me, I felt defeated. Both judgments rested on the same mistake. I had allowed someone else’s choices to become the measure of my own responsibility. Now the boundary seemed much clearer. My task is to speak truthfully. To listen carefully. To choose my words wisely. To remain respectful. To be patient. To pray. Beyond that, another person’s journey belongs to them.

As we finished our conversation, he left me with one final thought: “The clearer this boundary becomes,” he said, “the more peacefully you will be able to love people.”

I didn’t fully understand the sentence then. But I knew another question had begun to form. If my responsibility ends with sincere effort…

What happens when that effort seems to accomplish nothing?

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Your Role Is Influence, Not Control

Your Role Is Influence, Not Control

 

 

 

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I said it with a mixture of frustration and disappointment. “I’ve explained this so many times,” I told him. “I’ve tried different approaches. I’ve been patient. I’ve been firm. I’ve reasoned with them. I’ve reminded them. But nothing changes.”

He listened without interrupting.

“I honestly don’t know what else I’m supposed to do,” I said, after waiting for almost a minute.

He remained silent for a moment. It was as though he wanted the question to settle before responding. Then he asked quietly, “What is it that you’re trying to achieve?”

The question seemed too obvious. “I want them to change,” I replied.

He nodded, but instead of responding, he asked another question. “And do you think that is your responsibility?”

I looked at him, slightly puzzled. “What do you mean? If I care about someone, of course I want them to change.”

“I didn’t ask what you wanted,” he said gently. “I asked whether it is your responsibility.”

I wasn’t sure how to answer. Until that moment, I had never separated the two. Caring for someone and wanting them to change had always seemed inseparable. If someone I loved was making poor decisions, wasn’t it natural to feel responsible for helping them become different?

Perhaps he sensed my confusion. “Tell me,” he said, “have you ever changed simply because someone else wanted you to?”

I smiled sheepishly and said, “No.”

“What made you change?” He asked.

I thought for a while. “Usually…” I said slowly, “I changed when I became convinced that I needed to.”

He nodded again. “So the real decision was yours.”

“Yes.”

“And yet,” he continued, “you expect other people to change merely because you have explained something well.”

I laughed quietly. When he put it that way, it sounded surprisingly unreasonable.

He wasn’t suggesting that explanations don’t matter. Of course they do. Advice can illuminate something we have failed to notice. A sincere conversation can open a door that had remained closed. Sometimes another person’s words become the beginning of a profound change. But none of those things actually cause the change. At best, they invite it. That distinction had never been clear to me before.

He seemed to notice the thought forming in my mind. “You can present an idea,” he said. “You can explain it patiently. You can answer questions. You can even become an example of what you are trying to teach. But you cannot decide on another person’s behalf.”

For a while neither of us spoke. As I reflected on his words, something uncomfortable began to surface. The truth was that I wasn’t merely trying to help. I was trying to make sure they changed. Until that moment, I had never admitted that to myself. I had described my efforts as concern, sincerity, or care. And all of those were genuine. But hidden beneath them was another expectation, one I had never questioned. If I explained things clearly enough… If I found the right words… If I remained patient long enough… Surely they would change.

Looking back, I realized that most of my frustration had not come from their behavior. It had come from the gap between my expectation and reality.

He offered an example. “Imagine a father whose son is making poor choices. The father stays awake at night thinking, ‘Perhaps I haven’t explained it well enough. Maybe I need to speak more firmly. Maybe I need one more conversation.'” He paused for a while and then said, “Do you think the father’s desire is wrong?”

“No,” I replied immediately.

“Neither do I,” he said. “His love is real. His concern is real. But if he begins to believe that his son’s transformation depends entirely upon him, love quietly turns into something else.”

“Control?” I offered.

He smiled and said, “Yes.”

The word lingered in my mind. Control rarely announces itself. It often disguises itself as concern. We convince ourselves that we are simply trying to help, while quietly expecting another person to become who we think they should be. When they don’t, disappointment slowly becomes frustration, frustration becomes pressure, and pressure begins to damage the very relationship we were trying to protect.

I sat there thinking about conversations I had repeated over and over again. Each time, I believed I was offering guidance. But each unsuccessful attempt felt strangely personal, as though their decision reflected my own failure. Now I was beginning to understand why.

I had unconsciously taken responsibility for something that had never belonged to me.

He broke the silence. “You can influence people,” he said. “Sometimes deeply. Sometimes for a lifetime. But influence and control are not the same thing.”

I repeated the sentence quietly to myself. Influence… Not control. For the first time, I realized that I had spent years confusing the two. Perhaps that is why I had become so exhausted. Trying to influence someone requires sincerity, wisdom, and patience. Trying to control them requires carrying a burden no human being was ever meant to carry.

As we stood to leave, he said one final thing. “The moment you believe that another person’s change is your responsibility, you begin carrying a weight that does not belong to you.”

I walked away thinking about that. Maybe the deepest form of care is not found in trying to control another person’s journey, but in faithfully offering what we can, while respecting that the journey itself is still theirs.

Until that day, I had believed that caring meant making sure people changed. Now I was beginning to see that caring and controlling are not the same thing.

And perhaps wisdom begins when we finally learn the difference.

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When Principles Cost You Dearly

When Principles Cost You Dearly

 

 

 

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I said it almost defensively, “But if I act on this, I’ll come across as difficult. People won’t like it. It will create awkwardness.”

He didn’t argue. “That’s exactly the point,” he said.

I looked at him, unsure whether I had misunderstood. “What do you mean?” I asked.

He paused for a moment, then quietly said, “If your principles never cost you anything, they are probably just preferences.”

That landed harder than I expected. We like to think of ourselves as principled people. We say we value honesty, integrity, fairness, faith. We speak about doing the right thing. We admire it in others. We even intend it for ourselves. But intention is easy, until it comes with a cost. Because sooner or later, life presents a situation where acting on a principle will make you feel smaller in the eyes of others. You may lose approval. You may lose comfort. You may lose status. You may even lose relationships. And in that moment, something very quiet but very real happens inside. A negotiation begins. Is it really necessary to take a stand here? Can I be flexible this time? Does it really matter that much?

On the surface, these sound like reasonable questions. But often, they are not questions. They are exits.

“Principles are not tested when they are convenient,” he said. “They are tested when they cost you your ego.”

That word “ego” made everything clearer. Because what we often fear losing is not something external. It is how we are seen. Our image. Our acceptance. Our comfort within a group. And that is why compromise becomes so tempting. Not because we don’t know what is right. But because we know what it will cost.

He didn’t deny the difficulty. “Of course it will feel uncomfortable,” he said. “You may feel exposed. You may feel misunderstood. People may react.”

There was no attempt to soften it.

“But if you have decided that this is your principle,” he continued, “then you have to stand by it.”

That word—stand—felt heavier than it sounded. Because standing means not adjusting based on reactions. Not retreating when it becomes inconvenient. Not reshaping your values to fit the moment. It means staying. Even when it is uncomfortable.

I asked him something that had always confused me: “But where does the strength come from?” I said. “Because in the moment, it doesn’t feel like I have it.”

He didn’t answer immediately. Then he said, “From remembering where you are ultimately headed.”

I didn’t fully understand.

He explained: “If your motivation is to please people, then their reactions will control you.”

That made sense.

“If your motivation is comfort,” he continued, “then discomfort will defeat you.”

I nodded.

“But if your motivation is that one day you will stand before God,” he said, “then everything changes.” Because now, the question is no longer: What will people think of me? It becomes: What will I present before God? And in that frame, many of the smaller fears lose their grip.

He then pointed to something very practical: “Two things will help you,” he said.

I listened carefully.

“First, steadfastness. Second, prayer.”

I was expecting something more complex. But he kept it simple.

“Steadfastness,” he said, “means you have already decided.”

That was important.

You don’t wait for the moment to decide. Because in the moment, emotions are strong. Pressure is high. Clarity is low. You decide beforehand. This is who I want to be. This is what I will stand for. And then, when the situation arises, you act not based on how you feel but on what you have already chosen.

He added something that felt both honest and liberating: “Yes, you may lose something. Your ego may take a hit. People may not like it. You may feel left out. But that is part of the test.”

The second thing he mentioned was prayer. And here, his tone changed.

“Without a relationship with God,” he said, “steadfastness becomes very difficult.”

That was something I had experienced but never articulated.

Because when you rely only on your own personal strength, it runs out. But when you repeatedly return to God, when you stand in prayer, when you bow, when you acknowledge your need, something shifts. You are reminded that you are not standing alone. That your effort is seen. That your struggle matters. That your small acts of integrity are not insignificant. “They are part of your meeting with God,” he said.

That phrase stayed with me. Your meeting with God.

He gave an image that I still think about: “Imagine,” he said, “that every time you act on your principle, you are responding to a call. A call not from people. But from God. And when you respond, when you stand firm, when you choose what is right, you are, in a sense, saying: I heard Your call, and I came. That transforms the act. It is no longer just a social decision.
It is a spiritual response.

I remembered a small moment from my life. There was a gathering where a conversation had turned uncomfortable, something I didn’t agree with. It wasn’t extreme. It wasn’t dramatic. Just one of those situations where staying silent would have been easier. I felt the hesitation. If I speak, it will disrupt the flow. If I stay quiet, it will pass. In the past, I might have chosen silence. But that day, something was different. I didn’t argue. I didn’t preach. I simply said, “I’m not comfortable with this.”

There was a pause. A slight shift in the room. A few looks. And then the conversation moved on. It was a small moment. But it stayed with me. Not because of what others did. But because of what I did.

That’s when I understood what he meant. Principles are not always tested in big, dramatic situations. They are tested in small, ordinary moments. Moments where no one may even remember what you did. But you will. And perhaps, more importantly—God will.

In the end, he brought it back to something simple. “Make your life a reflection of that response,” he said. A response to God’s call. Not perfectly. Not flawlessly. But consistently.

Now, when I feel that hesitation, that pull to adjust, to avoid discomfort, to protect my image, I remind myself of something he said at the very beginning. If it costs you nothing, it is not a principle.

And if it is a principle, it is worth standing for.

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Empathy Is Not Agreement

Empathy Is Not Agreement

 

 

 

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I asked him a question that had been bothering me for a long time: “If I listen to someone—really listen, let them speak, give them space to express their pain—won’t they assume I agree with them?”

“That’s a real risk,” he said. “And it becomes dangerous if you don’t understand the difference.”

“Between what?” I asked.

“Between empathy and agreement.”

At first, that sounded simple. But the more he spoke, the more I realized how often we confuse the two, and how much damage that confusion causes in families, friendships, and workplaces.

He explained it slowly, as if unwrapping something fragile. “When someone is in pain,” he said, “they are not presenting a balanced argument. They are presenting a perception.”

That distinction stopped me. A person may feel wronged. Betrayed. Overlooked. But what they are expressing is not necessarily reality; it is their interpretation of reality.

“And empathy,” he continued, “is not about validating the interpretation. It is about acknowledging the feeling.”

That was subtle but profound.

It means saying, in essence: “Given how you are seeing this situation, it makes sense that you feel this way.” Not: “You are right in how you are seeing this situation.”

He gave an example that made it unforgettable.

“Imagine a young woman who has just been passed over for a promotion,” he said. “She comes to you and says, ‘It’s because my manager doesn’t like me. It’s discrimination.’”

Two things are happening at once: One: She feels humiliated, angry, and hurt. Two: She has interpreted the situation as deliberate unfairness.

Empathy addresses the first—not the second. You can say: “I can see how deeply this hurts. Anyone in your position would feel crushed.” But that does not mean you are confirming: “Yes, your manager is definitely biased.”

This is where most people slip. They think that if they don’t affirm the person’s narrative, they are being cold. And if they do affirm it, they are agreeing with them. But true empathy is neither cold nor agreement. It is being there for someone.

I raised another concern. “But what if they misunderstand?” I asked. “What if my silence or listening makes them think I agree?”

He nodded. “That can happen. And it will happen.”

There was no attempt to soften the truth.

“People can misinterpret empathy as agreement,” he said. “But that does not mean you abandon empathy.”

That was hard to accept. We all want immediate clarity. Immediate correction. We want to say, “Just so you know, I don’t agree with you.”

But he pointed toward something more patient. “Don’t treat a conversation as the final interaction,” he said.

That changed everything. If I believe this moment is my only chance to correct someone, I will rush. I will argue. I will push. And most likely, I will damage the relationship. But if I understand that conversations unfold over time, that clarity can emerge gradually, then I can afford to listen first. To understand first. To build trust first. And only then, at the right moment, gently introduce perspective.

He warned me about something more subtle: “Debate,” he said, “is often poison in close relationships.”

That felt counterintuitive. Isn’t truth important? Isn’t clarity important?

“Yes,” he said, “but not at the cost of connection.”

He told me a story: “A friend once came to me, furious about a family member who had wronged him. His version of events was full of holes. I could clearly see his role in the conflict. And my first instinct was to point it out.”

“What happened?” I asked.

“He stopped talking to me for three months. Not because I was wrong—but because he came to me for comfort, and I gave him a lecture.”

That story landed hard. When a person is in emotional distress, they are not ready to be corrected. If you try to “fix” their thinking immediately, they will resist. Not because your point is wrong, but because their state is not receptive. And once the interaction turns into a debate, the goal shifts. It is no longer about understanding. It becomes about winning. And when winning enters, relationships bleed.

Then he said something even deeper: “You cannot reform people,” he said. “You can only influence them.”

That sentence carried weight. Because so much of our frustration comes from assuming responsibility for outcomes that are not ours.

We think: I have explained this so many times; why don’t they change? I have shown them the right way; why don’t they follow? And when they don’t, we feel helpless. Irritated. Even betrayed.

But he reframed it. “That frustration,” he said, “comes from thinking you are responsible for changing them.”

I felt exposed. Because that was exactly what I had been doing, quietly, subtly, sometimes even unconsciously. Trying to fix people.

He shared a personal moment. “I lost my temper once with a close family member,” he said. “I had given him advice repeatedly. Kindly. Patiently. Clearly. And he kept making the same mistake.”

His voice softened as he said, “I shouted at him. And later, sitting alone, I realized I wasn’t angry at him. I was angry at myself for believing I could control his growth.”

That was the turning point. When he shifted from ‘I must change him’ to ‘I must contribute positively’, the frustration began to dissolve. Not because the other person changed. But because he stopped carrying a weight that was never his to carry.

He explained it in very clear terms. “My role is to present my understanding with sincerity, kindness, and preparation. After that, what the other person does, that is their journey.”

That does not mean indifference. It means clarity. You still care. You still listen. You still offer perspective. But you do not carry the burden of the outcome.

I thought about more difficult situations. People who move from person to person, seeking validation, distorting facts, even turning others against you. “What about that?” I asked. “What if they twist things and create real harm?”

He didn’t deny the complexity. “Yes,” he said. “That can happen. And it is painful.” Then he told me about someone he once knew. A colleague who spread rumors, played victim, and quietly poisoned relationships. “For months, I wanted to defend myself publicly. To correct every lie. To expose him.”

“What stopped you?”

“I realized that defending myself aggressively would only feed the drama. So, I stayed honest. I stayed consistent. I refused to play his game.”

“And what happened?”

“It took over a year. But eventually, people saw the pattern. Not because I argued, because I didn’t. The truth surfaced on its own.”

He looked at me. “You still operate within your domain. You remain honest. You remain clear. You remain consistent. And you trust that over time, truth has a way of rising. Not always immediately, not always comfortably, but eventually.”

What stayed with me the most was the quiet simplicity of the principle. Empathy is not agreement. Influence is not control. Responsibility is not outcome. If I can hold these distinctions clearly, so much confusion dissolves. I can listen without feeling compromised. I can care without feeling responsible for change. I can speak without turning every conversation into a battleground.

He brought it back to something deeper.

“You are accountable,” he said, “for your intention, your effort, your conduct. Not for another person’s transformation.” He paused and then added, “That belongs to them. And ultimately, to God.” There was no heaviness in his voice. Only peace.

I walked away with a different understanding of what it means to “be there” for someone. It is not about agreeing with them. It is not about correcting them immediately. It is not about fixing them. It is about creating a space where they are heard, without losing your own clarity. And then, gently, patiently, over time… offering something better than agreement.

Offering understanding. And perhaps, if they are ready, a way forward.

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The Inner Work of Forgiveness

The Inner Work of Forgiveness

 

 

 

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I asked him a question that had been sitting uneasily inside me for a long time. The Qur’an tells us to forgive others, “Do you not wish that God should forgive you?” I understand the verse. I believe in it. But when someone hurts you, disrespects you, or damages your dignity, forgiveness does not come naturally. So, I asked him plainly: What does this actually look like in real life? How does one change the inner construction that makes forgiveness possible?

He paused, as he often does, and then said, “The first thing is to stop treating forgiveness as a single, flat concept.”

He could see the confusion on my face.

He explained that what we casually call forgiveness actually includes different inner responses that must be clearly distinguished. Confusing them is what creates emotional turmoil. “There is,” he said, “a difference between overlooking a mistake and fully forgiving someone.”

Overlooking, he explained, is often the first and most necessary step. It means choosing not to condemn, not to keep rehearsing the other person’s fault in your mind, not to keep building a case against them internally. Sometimes a person does not even realize they are wrong. Sometimes they sincerely believe that they are justified. In such cases, demanding remorse is unrealistic. “In those situations,” he said, “your responsibility is not to fix them. Your responsibility is to protect your own moral standard.” Overlooking does not mean approving. It means deciding not to descend to their level. I will not react with retaliation, bitterness, or inner contempt. It is a conscious choice to remain gentle without becoming naïve.

Then he moved to the second layer. “True forgiveness,” he said, “belongs to a different situation altogether.”

This applies when the other person recognizes their mistake, feels remorse, and comes forward to seek forgiveness. At that point, forgiveness is not partial. It is not conditional. It is not ‘I forgive you, but I will keep this on record.’ It is a clean release. He said something that struck deeply. “When someone asks forgiveness sincerely, they are doing exactly what you do when you stand before God.”

When I ask God for forgiveness, I do not hope for a half-erasure. I hope to be washed clean. I hope the burden is lifted, not merely reduced. And if that is the mercy I seek for myself, how can I justify offering a lesser version to others?

That question stayed with me.

He clarified something else that I had been carrying incorrectly. “Forgiveness does not cancel accountability,” he said. If someone knowingly commits wrong, they will answer for it before God, and sometimes in this world as well. Forgiving them does not mean denying justice or pretending harm did not occur. It means refusing to harbor hatred, vengeance, or a sense of moral superiority in your heart.

Then he brought up the Qur’anic context that gives this command its emotional weight. He reminded me of the verse in Surah An-Nur revealed after a deeply painful incident: the false allegations against Aisha (ra). The damage was not abstract; it was personal, social, and humiliating. Some of the people involved were not strangers. They were relatives. They were beneficiaries of kindness. Abu Bakr, who had been financially supporting one such relative, felt understandably wounded. His instinct was human: Why should I continue helping someone who harmed my family’s honor? It was then that the Qur’an asked a question that cuts straight through moral defensiveness: Do you not wish that God should forgive you?

The instruction was not naïve. It did not deny the pain. It redirected the heart. “Forgiveness here,” he explained, “was not weakness. It was moral elevation.”

What struck me was how the inner posture needed to be separated from external consequence. Abu Bakr was not told to deny wrongdoing. He was asked to rise above it and to keep his own soul aligned with mercy.

He then said something that quietly shifted how I see relationships. “Never deal with people according to their standards,” he said. “Deal with them according to yours.”

That sentence stuck with me. If I lower my standard every time someone else behaves poorly, then my morality becomes reactive. But if I hold my standard steady, overlooking where ignorance exists, forgiving where remorse appears, I remain anchored.

He warned me about something subtle but dangerous. “When you focus obsessively on the other person’s behavior, you start wanting control. And control is not available to you. That’s where frustration is born.”

I recognized myself immediately. The anger, the irritability, and the inner arguments were not coming from the act itself. They were coming from my insistence on a particular outcome: They must understand. They must change. They must behave differently. But that insistence was never my responsibility to begin with.

“My task,” he said gently, “is not to force reform. My task is to respond in the way that brings me closer to God.”

That reframed forgiveness not as a favor to the other person, but as fidelity to my own test. Overlooking becomes a way of refusing to poison my inner world. Forgiveness becomes a way of aligning my heart with the mercy I hope to receive.

By the end of the conversation, I realized that forgiveness is not a dramatic act. It is quiet inner labor. It is choosing—again and again—not to let someone else’s mistake decide who I become. And perhaps that is why the Qur’an asks the question the way it does. Do you not wish to be forgiven?

Because, in the end, forgiveness is not about them. It is about the kind of heart I am carrying forward.

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Anatomy of an Apology

Anatomy of an Apology

 

 

 

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“I already said sorry,” I said, a little defensively. “What more do they want?”

He didn’t argue. He asked, “Did you apologize—or did you try to end the discomfort?”

That question stayed with me longer than the conversation itself.

He explained that most apologies fail not because people are insincere, but because they are incomplete. “An apology,” he said, “is not a word. It’s a structure.” And like any structure, if one pillar is missing, it collapses.

First Pillar: Specificity

“Never just say, ‘I’m sorry,’” he said. “That sentence is empty unless it points to something real.”

I frowned. “But isn’t ‘sorry’ enough?”

“It’s enough to ease your conscience,” he replied. “Not enough to repair a relationship.”

A real apology names the wound. “I’m sorry for raising my voice in front of others.” “I’m sorry for dismissing what you were saying.” “I’m sorry for not keeping my word.”

Specificity does two things at once: it shows awareness, and it reassures the other person that you actually understood what went wrong. Without that, an apology feels foggy, present, but not helpful.

Second Pillar: Acknowledging the Impact

He added something subtle, but powerful. “Before you apologize,” he said, “acknowledge that what happened matters.” Not dramatically. Not emotionally. Simply truthfully. “This damages trust.” “This hurts the relationship.” “This creates distance between us.”

I realized how often people skip this part. They apologize as if nothing significant occurred—as if the relationship itself wasn’t affected.

“That’s why apologies sometimes feel insulting,” he said. “They sound like cleanup, not care.”

Third Pillar: Responsibility and Intention

An apology that ends in the past tense is unfinished. “It happened because of this,” he said. “And I will try not to let this happen again.”  That sentence is not a promise of perfection. It’s a declaration of responsibility. “I can’t guarantee I’ll never fail,” he said, “but I can guarantee I’m not brushing this aside.”

He told me about a colleague who once said, “I’m sorry you felt that way,” and then moved on. “That’s not an apology,” he said. “That’s a grammatical escape.” Real apologies don’t shift the burden. They carry it.

 

I asked the question most people are afraid to ask.

“What if I do all of this—and they still don’t forgive me?”

He didn’t hesitate. “Then your apology must still stand.”

That surprised me.

He said something that reframed apologies completely. “The sincerity of your apology,” he said, “cannot depend on the response you receive.” If your apology is sincere only when it’s accepted, then it was never about repair—it was about approval. “You don’t apologize to be relieved,” he said. “You apologize to be aligned.” Aligned with truth. Aligned with responsibility. Aligned with your own standards.

Whether the other person is ready to receive it is a separate matter.

He told me about a man who apologized deeply to a friend after years of distance. The friend listened, nodded, and said nothing. “No forgiveness. No warmth. No reconciliation,” he said.

“And?” I asked.

“The man left lighter,” he replied. “Not because the relationship healed—but because he didn’t lie to himself anymore.”

A genuine apology may or may not heal a relationship. But it will always heal your integrity.

It teaches you to face consequences without defense. It trains you to name harm without collapsing. It frees you from needing the other person’s reaction to validate your sincerity. He ended with a line that felt quietly radical. “Apologize because it is right, not because it works.”

And perhaps that is the highest form of maturity:

To say, with clarity and humility, This is what I did. This is why it mattered. This is how I will try to do better — and to mean it, even if the room stays silent.

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